out of control

2009-07-05T17:59:00.002+08:00

i'm at fad's house now.
i think i haven been here for very long
my best friend is leaving in 5 days for queensland australia and the next time i see her will be in november. so sad
no more shopping together
watching movies
late night suppers
and msging and calling to complain and tell her my problems.

bored looking at old secondary school pictures make me cringe and like get embarrassed at the clothes i wore and hairstyles i had. eew
hahhahaa

ill miss her

a dream is a wish your heart makes

2009-06-15T09:47:00.002+08:00

I had that dream again
for awhile i was content to just forget and not remember
then the dream

anw
my dad broke the car windshield. -.- he says he wasnt speeding but i think he was.
Those big monster trucks that carry sand, yeah a pebble flew and hit the windshield.
Of course for it to create such an impact my dad musta been travelling quite fast

yesterday's singapore arts festival closing ceremony saw an array of fireworks, smoke lots lots smoke and lotsa lotsa ppl
first time every carpark around my block is full haha

niwaes, i really really want to believe that everything is ok
but somehow its quite impossible
really does no one say what they really mean or do what they really mean?
you're no longer a kid, no longer a young teenager.
wake up and see the wrinkles forming.

charlene or ila if you're reading this, msg me please.

2009-05-24T14:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder what sort of friendships ppl have if they bitch about each other behind their backs

i don actually care who reads this because well, this is where i can express my feelings and emotions freely. what i feel and what i think.

2009-05-08T21:05:00.004+08:00

this is gg to be an entry of holidays... :)

FAD BABE! holiday bali or krabi?St. regis in bali... haiii look at that pooooooool
snorkeling in krabi.... lalalalaaaaaaaa look at that waterr

i need to save money from my job at SAS to pay for sch fees and to go on holiday...

today i realised smtg...
that i wont regret saying good bye, even though i hate saying it
when you say good bye
you make sure u have good memories to tie u in for the future
sort of like a photo album
like a friend once said
"oh and i believe friends come and go but some of this people you're just very lucky to have met."

the laughter and tears, I'll carry with me in my own photo album
the 3 years of poly, have passed by so fast
in two weeks, my graduation day is coming
my mom is excited and asking if she can bring alot of people.
of course so i won be embarrassed i said no. 2 only.
and i can't believe it's over. 3 years...
wow
i've enjoyed every single minute of my life in poly.
seriously.
now, another photo album is being made.
whatever happens in the future, i'll always have this photo album of my 3 years with my poly friends.

im slacking but i love it
but i also know im 20 its time to get serious
i want to and need to get my degree
specialization? journalism/marketing

BLOODY SWINE

2009-05-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

Happy 20th to Mr. Eoin Ee Wei Hao!
may your year be filled with happiness

went out with iqah just now
walked and searched the whole 10minutes of bencoolen street/link for sae
and realised it was well there. haha
nearer to dhoby ghaut
and walked to orchard road aft tt
god i havent walked that far in a long time
it felt good

i'm feeling sappy
i know sometimes its too much to ask but would it hurt to wish for things to remain the same?
that it don't change with time?
my friend sailed away today. coming back in 6 mths
bon voyage if you read this. stay healthy and dont get h1n1! have fun take lotsa nice pictures!
i envy his journey. travelling.

my best friends is gg to aussie in like 2 mths for 2 years! GOD! what would i do in boring ol yishun at night when im bored? who can i complain to or run to when i'm feeling sad?
:( fad, you're the only person i lay my heart out when im upset and the only one who knows my heart and me well that there are things i dont need to say but u understand.

i sound so lesbian. haha. but then. this is the perfect best opportunity for you! :D love you lots babe! like all the other times, im gg to get a new bff jewellrey hahahaha god so secondary sch! haha

i want to go on a holiday. my mom wants to go to KL. =s eew. haha
lemme take a look at websites
but now so unhealthy to be flying
hai

Dirty laundry

2009-05-02T08:16:00.001+08:00

Have I said before I'm tired of trying to please everyone? Frankly it's disappointing when you're the only one trying the only one making the effort to salvage it. And after all that, to hear the cheek certain people have to lay the blame at your feet without knowing the details.

Even I dont know the details but I chose to overlook them and thought what we had meant more than that to simply throw away. Why am I always the one taking the first step to text or call?

Maybe to you it's my fault we became like this but what are you doing to help? So it's your fault for not trying. If there was smtg wrong why didn't u tell me? I thought we were friends.
Haven't I told u all this before when I thought we were drifting apart? What happ after tt?

All I ever received when I text or call is a let's meet up soon but ntg comes out of it. And the fcking cheek of certain ppl to try and initiate tt.

Knn u think my world revolves around u? There are ppl around me who obviously care more abt me and make the effort.

From now on, I don gv two shits how we are. I sincerely regret it came to this but thank you for all the wonderful memories you've given me.

2009-04-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hai I can't believe the time has come
we're all finally. OLD
hahaha

graduation is coming 3 years has passed by so quickly
seriously
if i could change anything in the 3 years, I'd study more
then i wont have such shitty time being accepted to a LOCAL GOVT UNI
pfft
ouh i got accepted to a pvt uni already
dunno whether i should wait for june for local uni letter or not
hai

it's the time of year time of my life
ppl are gg uni
ppl are starting work for real
ppl are gg overseas to study
ppl are flying sailing away
ppl are gg to serve the nation
who's gg to stay with me!?!

i'll miss my friends
fad u cannot go aussie!
who am i gg to talk to abt my prob
who's gg to make me laugh
who am i gg to tease
who am i gg to go out with for supper
hai
fad!!! :(
my bff is always flying off somewhere
congrats on passing ur bike tp babe
vroom vroom me around
i'll make u a sticker which says "im with stupid"
ROAD RAGE! hahahha kidding babe! :D

oh well decisions decisions

a month of pouring your heart out
i need a holiday badly
get me to langkawi now
or mauritius
fine as long as there's a beach a nice pool aircon and food. hai

2009-03-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

no doubt i'm alone in all of this

on a lighter note, i think sea salt caramel ice cream RAWKS. anyone who disagrees can stick to their peanuts. don't ask me where the peanuts came from. i just dislike them

i'm feeling frustrated and experiencing such killjoy that it's tiring.
it's tiring.

I wanna try ice creams from all the ice cream parlors featured in 8DAYS this week. Maybe my angst will go away and I will put on a little weight. I feel uplifted a little that I'm not such a suaku that I haven't been to any of them. :)

Sometimes, I wonder how other people see us as. I know I sometimes try to hard to get people to like me. And sometimes, I think too much of how other people see me whether they like me. But to the people who really know me and those I'm comfortable with, I shouldn't have to hide what I'm thinking what I'm feeling.

It's tiring to try and please everyone

I'm tired of trying.

2009-02-09T13:37:00.002+08:00

IPP is over.
even though im continuing here, i feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulders..

i wanna eat ben & jerry. or azabu sabo's sea salt caramel. any ice cream, JUST GIMME ICE CREAMMM!!!!!!

Thanks to laura's facebook notes about me. 'L'

now everytime i say anything which begins with 'I' i'm reminded of it.
in case you dont know WTH is this bitch talking about, go to facebook.

hai. what're YOU doing now after IPP? I need to write report but i have totally NO INSPIRATION TO WRITE

Failures

2009-02-02T22:57:00.005+08:00

Would you buy a toothpaste with a name like this? I hope you won't. Who knows using it might actually turn you into one.

see more pwn and owned pictures

and seriously... i think the "artist" doesn't know the difference between a human and a horse

see more pwn and owned pictures

Any guy who wears this shirt has a huge ego. Or maybe its a female designer who loves... yeah you get the picture

see more pwn and owned pictures

Seriously i love this website. It always manages to crack me up and make me stay awake at work when even typing a movie synopsis makes me sleepy.

2009-01-31T20:45:00.003+08:00

i don't understand how FBT shorts or super micro mini shorts paired with quite a decent looking tank top can be called fashionable. seriously. these girls look like they're not wearing anything save their top. and where did they go to eat? Swensens! SWENSENS i tell you. no doubt its not some high class uppety restaurant but still? OMG LA... please put some pants or skirt on. HOW CAN THIS ACTUALLY BE FASHIONABLE! you're not gg to some mama shop or going running and i doubt you'd wear that top to run either. wth.
I've changed my hair colour. from dry, grass feeling brown blonde whatever. to black with red streaks. ok this picture is not very good but I LOVE MY RED STREAKS. :D went to one of the salons on FRIDAY at BRADELL during lunch with the bf. Been meeting ppl for lunch during the 3 days of no work bcoz i positively cant stand being alone. i think i just made an oxymoron. oh wells.

bringing the car out has never been more fun. :D

finally my laptop is back! of course it burnt a hole in my pocket. $609! walao! hai......... i could buy SOOOO many things with that money.

2009-01-16T10:16:00.002+08:00

i miss my bloody laptop. it is still under repair and so many things cannot be done
anime, work yes undoubtly im still bringing work home, drama, chatting, im resolved to just msging ppl once im home. it's sooo boring

AND HELLO! IM PROUD TO SAY I GOT MY LICENSE ALREADY. NYAHAHAHAHA
don care if im showing off
i worked hard for it :p
2 points. YAY! nyahahahhahaha

well mom says she still won trust me with the car yet. if u ask me i think she's just being selfish and lazy to take the train to work. *Rolls eyes* seriously

me: mom can i use the car the whole week of cny
mom: for what???
me: to drive around practise since i'll be on leave
mom: no you can't i need the car to go to work!
me: hello what is the train and bus for? i'll send you to work then go home with the car la you can go home urself. exercise. you're complaining u're gaining weight what
mom: no so many people. have to walk to mrt. i end late. (she calls 530 late!) you either send and pick me up or u don use the car.
me: WHAAAAAAAAAAAT. you very lazy leh.

and so yeah. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai.

lights shadows and yester-year

2009-01-02T09:30:00.003+08:00

photo taken by me grabbed frm khai's facebook
photo taken by me grabbed frm khai's facebook

Happy New Year to all my friends and family.
may all of you have good luck and happiness for the entire year. ok too far fetched. entire month then. hahaha

i was staying up last night reading and suddenly out of nowhere i felt like coming up with my new year resolutions
well my new year resolution for 2009 is:

1) to enter a university after this internship...
2) to at least travel overseas ONCE this year and no JB, Melacca, Sentosa doesn't count. preferably with my friends. but even if its with my parents i don mind either. then my shopping is paid for. LMAO
3) be more healthy by exercising, blah blah which i can't mention
4) learn to save instead of thinking of shopping all the time
5) tell mother that i cant take any drama in the family and proceed to help her
6) treating the bf better ( not that ive been treating him badly right?) ;)
7) spend more time with my friends and probably since most of the guys are gg NS, meet my sec sch friends mainly 2E5 ppl.
8) spend more time with my poly friends. god knows in 6 mths i actually see less of them than i do in even a 2 mth holiday.
9) i dont know how but find a way to regain back the lessons of at least either dancing, piano or smtg and FINISH IT!
10) pick up something new and finish it.

i have a tendency to not finish what i start. even food. i eat a sandwhich but once the filling is finished, i'll put down the bread. I start violin, piano, ballet, dance lessons, and stop halfway. i drink a bottle of green tea. i always don finish it.

so happy new year one and all! :)

2008-12-04T21:52:00.008+08:00

It's barely friday and even now
i cant honestly say tgif
because ive been working every sat n sunday
and yes this sat n sun
yes i love my job
but im tired
i miss my friends

honestly, i dont envy ppl who have exams
but i envy ppl who have a free time at work
im such a workaholic
i bring work home
check my work mail even when im out on a shoot
check my email at home

oh dont get me wrong
i honestly really love my work n the people there
they're fun crazy n friendly people who i can talk joke laugh and work with

to make myself happy
i buy books and read
my bookcase is getting rather crowded

i feel bitchy, moody crappy and my snap is sharper n deadlier than a crocodiles
im so sorry matthew you had to be on the receiving line of all this

my most happiest and crazy and embarrassing days
no doubt the most memorable
was actually in sec 2
i miss my 2e5 times
i'd reach sch super early coz my mom sends me to sch
the class chairman and me would be the first to arrive
because half the class are band members we're all pretty close
because we had nothing to do the 4 of us namely
me, wen nan, iman and fatin were so crazy about band that we'd march, hentak kaki, sing band songs dance to that thing you do and whatsthatsongtitle which i cant remember and blah blah blah.
we were the crazy 4 who ended up being the band majorette, deputy band major, drum major and me the secretary the receiving end of all these crazy 3 when they feel like ranting at someone
from left to right
tan wen nan(dbm), fatin suhaila(band majorette), muhammad iman(drum major), me, aiman(treasurer)
i LOVE THOSE DAYS
and people would think we're siao early morning do this kinda shit
but i loved it
i was looking through all my old letters n pictures and i cried re-reading all the graduating letters tt was given from all of them. yes i still keep them. all of them. from the small card tt iman gave me during the bands first concert to cheer me on, to the note by daniel yau our temp conductor which i hated at first, to all the thank u cards made with effort by all of them...
the first concert tix, letter aft letters of thank yous and i'll miss working with yous....

im babbling. honestly, i think in 5 more years if i read any letter frm poly n look through pics on a day like this, id cry too and think tt ill miss all of my friends...

2008-11-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

guilty pleasures

eating chocolates when you're on a diet
drinking something cold and sweet when u're having ur period even thought u know u're gg to suffer from cramps later
lying down and purposely being late in meeting ur friend coz u just love the comfiness of your bed

there's so many things in life that just make me happy which sometimes i know is just temporary
that it cant last

i miss my friends. charlene, iqah, ila
i have to work on the 26th of november
i have to work nxt weekends
i have to this and that this and that

i need to escape from the world again
escape to my quiet corner
and just let the wind blow my face n hair
and smell the salty sea water

i wanna go on holiday
wherever besides malaysia is fine
really.
just bring me somewhere

i hate it that i spent my credit card on something not even for myself

and the BEST THING THAT HAPPENED AT WORK?
my computer crashed on me.
THAT SORTA THING ONLY HAPPENS AT HOME
HOME
HOME
NOT AT WORK
COMPUTERS ARENT SUPPOSE TO CRASH AT WORK

hai...
i'm so irritated by some people's presence sometimes.
thank god for jacintha or i think i'd go crazy at work.
yes its high risk
yes its enjoyable
yes its sometimes so busy i can't sit down until 6pm

2008-11-06T23:38:00.003+08:00

i hate this feeling of being unsure of myself
its coming back again
full fledged
hitting me from the front, back left right.

never ever underestimate the power of hypocrisy
it can fool even the cleverest of people
one can only hope that somehow that gray cloud has a silver lining
and that silver lining will shine itself onto the hypocrisy
and show the true colours of that star
i think its apt to use this phrase which i learned in pri school

lembu punya susu, sapi punya nama

means

cow's milk, but butter gets the name.
or whatever sapi means i cant remember
basically,
taking credit for the work of others. LOL

2008-11-05T01:25:00.009+08:00

Caught Quantum of solace.
didn't get it but apparently QOS is supposed to be like the continuation 1 hr aft Casino Royale.
alot of action that i had to shield my eyes from the brightness.
but the surrendering of hps was abit retarded. like. huh. ok. how come madagascar 2 don need surrender this movie must. -.-

somehow, it just isnt the same if someone else says the "Bond. James Bond" line.
it wasnt daniel craig who said it but one of the ermm ppl dunno who.

too much cat fights in the beginning.
literally
the two were jumping off buildings, punching scratching eaach other
like 2 cats. -.-
ok the girl reminded me of catherine zeta jones and daniel craig likes to pout. like SUPER.
hmmm he's the ugliest hottest bond ever. hahahaha according to sharon.
ugly coz he's not pierce brosnan hot coz his bodyis like. WOAH. hahahaha

and lookie..
why oh why did they cast robert pattinson as edward.
how can a cutie (the bf says he looks like kana hit by lorry)

turn out like this (like he kana hit by lorry a few times and reversed n hit again)

This top one still ok. haiiiii...
and bella. is fugly... her voice sounds like a man.

WHY WHY WHY!!
maybe ill start liking them when i watch the movie.

Angels and demons coming out in may 2009
can't wait.
lalalalala...

2008-10-24T09:18:00.002+08:00

why isit tt sometimes its the people that u're not close to, strangers, the ones who know u better
who can say out what u're feeling so perfectly
how do i put it?
anger can make u say hurtful things to people
it makes u not think abt the feelings of the other person and just blurt out whatever comes to ur mind in order to hurt tt person
i've had my share of being the hurter and the hurt-ee. i hate tt feeling of regret coz i don apologize very well nor do i like tt feeling of being hurt.

i finally got sick
aft laughing at jacintha
getting caught in drizzles every single day coz, "its just a drizzle"

my eyes feel heavy.
im waiting for work to come
waiting for the ** courier to call me back coz my cd is still not in
damn it

2008-10-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

what i can't say or maybe I missed out a few things, I'll try to say them here

Sometimeswhen one thing goes wrong, everything starts falling apart.
you sudd feel that there's so many decisions you have to makebut take a breather
and start with the easiest problem.
i know it sounds so contradictingbut you don need to solve all your problems at the same time.
solve one, the easiest then u can have the motivation to solve the other bigger problems

when you feel that you're going to break down and the world is eating u whole,
sometimes being alone helps.
not even with friends but alone
go somewhere urself, the beach, airport, whatever and just sit there and stone. haha
very idiotic but it works for me. and sometimes, all u need is a good cry alonewith the sea breeze blowing against ur faceand the smell of salt water as salty as ur tears
so poetic yes.

i say alot of sometimes because these things don't apply all the time
there are times u need friends but there are also times when all you need is to be alone.
and whatever helps.

everyone needs love in their lives but it doesn't mean you'd be better and easier with a boyfriend dear.
go with what's best for yourself and not anyone else.
and also it doesnt mean that if you've been hurt, (because some guys can be a bastard), it will always be that way.

to my darling friends who feel like life sucks. chin up, be strong
and like how you've been there for me,thank you and I hope I can be as much help
I'm here for you...
maybe get a cat. they help relieve some amount of stress. =D

2008-09-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

I got this from Fad Fad's blog

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Why're you so emo my dear girl??

Message:
Don't look at the bottom before you do the thing or it won't work...
.
this is scary but pretty accurate...
.
1. Which color is better red, black,blue or yellow?
blue
2. What's your first initial?
N
3. What month is your birthday?
March
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
white
5. Name one of your friends?
fadila
6. Pick a number 1-100
26
7. Would you like to fly or drive
more?
i want to drive la god damn it
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean
more?
ocean

ANSWERS:
1.
If you chose:
Red: You are alert and your life is
full of love.
Black : You are conservative and
aggressive.
Green: Your soul is relaxed and you
are laid back.
Blue: You are spontaneous and love
kisses and affection from the ones you
love and give good advice to those who
are down.
Yellow: You are a very happy person.
2.
If you're initial is:
A-K: You have a lot of love and
friendships in your life.
L-R: You try to enjoy your life to
the maximum & your love life is soon
to blossom.
S-Z: You like to help others and your
future love life looks very good.
3.
If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well
for you and you will discover that you
fall in love with someone totally
unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong
love relationship that will last
forever.
July-Sept: You will have a great year
and will experience a major life-
changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great,
and eventually you will find your soul
mate.
4.
If you chose:
Black: Your life will take you on a
different direction, it will seem hard
at times but it will be the best thing
for you, and you will be glad for the
change.
White: You will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would
do anything for you, but you may not
realize it.
5.
This person is your best friend.
6.
If it is
1-50 you are a very lovable person and
you have a great life
More than 50 screw the world
7.
If you chose:
Flying - You like adventure.
Driving - You are a laid back person.
8.
If you chose:
Lake - You are loyal to your friends,
your lover, and yourself.
You are very
reserved but emotional.
Ocean - You are spontaneous and like
to please people sometimes.

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2008-09-22T22:14:00.006+08:00

I guess the pictures says it all... happy birthday (belated) my dear grl iqah.. big 20 alr... hehe. tunang or nikah must invite me ok... soo
Happy belated birthday too Huda... 19 alr. im grateful that i didn't get infected by your laugh... it was great working with u(for the first time in 3 years) during tep.. =)

So... dinner was a very pleasant affair.. i finally got to see you 2 gals whom I'm too far away to have lunch with even though we're all in central but blame the inconvenience of mediacorp that its soo inaccessible. lol.

Jia you! I believe that even though you gals have so much work to do and sometimes it doesn't seem worth it, at the end of the day, when you see your work being put up, or you see something of yours, you'll find that it's worth it. =) cheer up my ladies... BIGGEST HUGS... be it even if i finish at 8 or whatever pm, we'll find a day to meet again soon ks? jia you iqah, charlene, ila...

i think even if we didnt get to meet, the 3G call to charlene made me happy enough tt i saw u guys. GOSH I SOUND SOOOOOO MELODRAMATIC. like we're overseas or smtg. -.- pfft

WARNING!! SUGAR OVERLOAD!

This was what I have been up to last week. Trade show. wrapping candy, reading abt the up and coming ch5 dramas...
you know.. now that i sit and think, listening to my colleagues talk during meetings about this and that, it all seems SOOOO FAMILIAR. the things that I've been taught in year 1 and 2, all seem to hit me. like deja vu. and im like eternally grateful sudd when I realise im not as lost when i'm hearing jargon like acquired, budgets, tx, trailers, cross promo, blah blah blah...

I'm enjoying myself at work. there's alot to do, esp aft the intern who's working there leaves, but i like what im doing. hopefully i wont screw anything big or small up.

ok enough of the work talk...

2008-09-14T21:42:00.003+08:00

IPP's starting tmr
and already i'm missing my friends
i'm missing year 1 and year 2 when we'd all go for lunch and think where to eat
NORTH, FFC, KOUFU?

hai...

sorry i couldn't meet u on fri charlene dear...
lets go out one day ila, charlene, iqah.. if you're reading this. smiles.
im missing you gals alot sudd... =(

2008-09-06T01:04:00.006+08:00

A lil late but i've too many memories
too many pictures to post
of the past 21 weeks

How 21 weeks fly past when you're having fun
and honestly, I've never noticed how fast it flew until the 21st week arrived

From the frst day of tep,
I'll miss
thinking of what to wear
waking up at 730 and thinking SHIT IM LATE
msging iqah at 750 asking her where she is to go to sch
waking up my lazy bf at 7am. lol oops
taking the train with iqah and complaining how tired we are.
sending miss ang story ideas
sending synopsis and script
getting scolded by leo coz we never send him synopsis
filming
getting pissed coz of missing footage
getting pissed coz of stupid cleaning cassette
getting pissed coz of stupid digidecks which refuse to connect
getting pissed coz editing is just plain tiring
asking people for lunch
hearing REPLAY from khai's computer
hearing replay being played on 70% of ppl's computer
filming with laura, leo, cindy and even yulin's hairspray
eating at CHEAP McD
going south to buy bubble tea
asking ppl what you doing aft school
playing games on my laptop
asking cherylene for new games
watching anime in sch
playing bluff in sch
playing snap, donkey, old maid in school
complaining that there's no food to eat in sch
hearing NAHBEH from kelvin
finding khai and iqah when im bored to entertain me
doing catch layout
ok im crazy but i actually MISS doing the layout for catch =(
disturbing eoin abt his 9 princessess
buying siew mai. =p
going for lunch with ila charlene and iqah
asking them if they have tuition aft sch
staying late aft sch to finish up work
running for the door when we see someone comnig out from the side doors.
no more mr. chong singing IIIIFFFFF AAAAAHHHHH terribly. hahahha
no more mr. azhar catching us all doing illegal stuff like watching movies

so many tears and luaghter that i've shared with so many people
we must must must all keep in contact
its so diff that we learn to cherish things only at the end
i don want to go for IPP
i want to have more starbucks at night laughing til we cry
i want to have more shopping and cam whoring
i want to have more of everything
i want to turn back time and replay everything from 21 weeks ago.

my layout. matthew's article
my favourite out of all layouts i've done for catch
of course the infamous eoin video

the place looks damn sad and empty without anyone
no more walking through these doors and going in like some super big shot. hahaha
no more signing out and returning equipment

this is the last class picture we'll ever get.

i'll miss you guys. badly.
matthew. iqah. ila. charlene. khai. anjana. huda. syazni. eoin. leonard.

2008-08-31T17:59:00.002+08:00

i received a teacher's day present from my fav students! LOL

i don care what u think
i know its just a tupperware
so?
its the thought that counts
and I was honestly touched that they wanted to give me one

and it doesnt matter that they didnt know how to spell my name and wrote
to:
english teacher (Girl) on it.

because it mattered more that they gave me one without even knowing my name. =D

im so sappy.
LOL

no pictures
coz well lazy. blogger has been a bitch when uploading photos. so i shall not upload.

exactly 5 more days of TEP. dreading dreading dreading.

2008-08-25T10:01:00.006+08:00

I will miss my kumon kids when I leave for attachment. =(
The two tai tais wei ying n zhi ying, (above n bottom)
The Goh brothers Sean and Leroy. I still think Leroy is cuter coz he's so blur and has 2 dimples! =D even though he never lets go of his bag as if got gold. LOL
This is my korean student Kim sheong soon. her bro is kim kyung jun. everytime i call out their names it makes me feel like watching korean dramas. LOL
And this is.. henrich. matthew's fav student who he loves to rub the belly one. i snapped this photo just in time when he put down the chair. it makes him look like ninja turtle don u think. HAHAHA

and i recently went on holiday. to bali. =D
NAH just kidding. this was taken at airport. hahahahaha
but uber cool right the hut.

we travelled to all the terminals coz forgot where popeye's was.
in the end found it at t1. LOL

i have to post this up.

matthew: why the breast so big ah
matthew: ey the breast very white right?

he's actually talking about breast meat ok dont think dirty.
we both ordered breast meat. hahaha. super big and tender
i think better than kfc!
crispy juicy skin and tender super nice and clean white flesh. =D

my favourite pict. i think taken by huda's cam. =D inside sky train. lol
immitating huda and anjana. hahaha! guess who's who. hahahaha

the hut looks sooooo bali-ish. hahaha

2008-08-18T10:05:00.009+08:00

LONG OVERDUE PICTURES FROM BLUE JAZ
let's get together yeah yeah yeah

The messy table, the long, japan high school like walkway

the rooms

the lousy computers

the aircon

the pantry

the people

see everyone's cup inside?

im going to miss tep

really

when i start work

and my friends arent around to kill my boredom

or to go out to lunch

or to come to sch with

Yes yes i know hari raya not here yet

but we were play acting for iqah's prod grp.

the one in white is our uncle and aunt

the second pic sitting on the chairs are our parents

who are we?

we're siblings

shafina iqah iffah. =D

hahahahaha

2008-08-13T19:51:00.002+08:00

I finally finally know what the worse day of your life feels like

On Monday,
I took MC coz for 8 days, i've been having back aches
there were 10 children, babies before me
waited for exactly an hour

went to jurong before that coz if you havent alr know
my laptop dropped and the whole screen inside cracked.
so yes it was also on mon early early morning
so yes. retarded

went to jurong so freaking far
took bus to acer
queued for another 45 mins coz there were sooo many bloody people
finally my turn
person said $350! THREE HUNDRED AND FIFTY FREAKING DOLLARS!!!
hai
where the hell am I going to get that money?
Rob a bank?
Steal?
Use credit card? Ok that was what I wanted to do
coz i really love my laptop
it has 160gb of space, 1gb ram, AAAALLLLLL my stuff and yeah u get it
then called my mom to confirm she nvr pick up
left acer
board bus.

THEEEEEEN my mom calls and says dont repair too expensive take back
so yes! after reaching jurong interchange, i turned back
with no money left in my ezlink, used my remaining 80CENTS
to board the bus BACK to acer
queued again and got back my laptop

THEEEEN
decided to cab since i had to money to bus back
NO BLOODY CAB WOULD STOP
sooo
what to do? WALK
WALK
WALK!!!!!! to jurong MRT.
DO YOU KNOW HOW FAR IT IS FROM INDUSTRIAL PARK TO JURONG MRT???
IN THE FREAKING HOT HOT SUN AND HEAVY BAG?

THEEEEN
THE BEST THING
I HATE MURPHY'S LAW
YOU KNOW?:
WHAT CAN GO WRONG WILL GO WRONG

MY FREAKING HP DECIDED TO DIE ON ME
NO CONNECTIONS TO ANYONE
MESSAGE BARRED
NO OUTGOING CALLS
I WAS PRACTICALLY LOST
LOST LOST LOST

sooo being me of course
i cried ALLL the way to jurong mrt
half an hour walk.

heat stroke, headache, sweaty, hot, no connections, no msg, no money no nothing
felt like a loser and yeah stupid

so finally i reached mrt and board train
no seats
best until cck then got seat.

hai

THAT is what the worse day of my life felt like
on top of that.
double Bs
no not my cup size
my grades for stopover 1 and 2
hai

then of course the best
my mom tells me today her friend cannot repair must send back to acer coz its the inside of the screen

wow!!!
back to acer!
WOW! (i'm being sarcastic)

2008-08-08T22:31:00.004+08:00

As I was reading my past past past entries,
I realised I haven been emo lately.
hahahaha

I used to be like
oh this that this that
!@#$%^&* away but yeah now I don't
like WOW!
and that was like what a year, 2 years ago?
I can't handle stress.

Now, I THINK i can. i hope i can

Can I be blunt? Honest? and True here?
I'm saying this here coz I don't have the guts
yes I don't have the guts to say this to you face to face

Didn't we promise that we'd still be close?
Didn't we say we won't drift apart?
Is it just me? Am I the only one feeling that things are just so different now?
I don't know. Maybe it's just me. But I didn't see why I used to be able to everytime find you, but you can't.
Why I must be the one to take initiative?
Up til the point where we drifted apart.
Is it the circumstances, people, who pull us apart?
Or is it just coz we never bothered to even find each other?
Simple things like hey would you like to go eat?
up til the point that it didnt even matter if i was there you'd just leave for lunch on your own.
Am I that invincible?

Ok. first emo post then. Didn't plan it but I guess it came out. after reading all my previous entries.

I dont know if you'll be pissed.
Don't know if it'll piss you off
just wanted to let it out
coz yes I don't have the guts to say it to you
coz i don't know why but it just feels different now
not coz i want people to know
people alr know, alr ask why, what happ, how.
coz yes it's that obvious.

i know 080808
suppose to be a lucky day
ok
im lucky
i have friends who care for me, help me out in my times of need. Thank you iqah. I really really appreciate what you did and said. =)
i have a bf who loves me and cares so much about me.. thank you. i love you alot.
stupid fat cats who just make me feel better when i reach home.
and somehow or another, the past, for giving me my future. or something like that from what's that movie called. hahaha something about past that gave you your future. oh whatever.

im gg watch cartoons then slp.
Catch issue 21 is finally done
i'm tired
i love our mag! =D

2008-08-06T23:36:00.008+08:00

i hate tep

i love tep

i hate tep because:

i have to go to sch everyday

everyday is 830-530

everyday is work to do

drifting away from ppl

i love tep:
no exams

no studying

more time with friends

make new friends

realise more things (dunno good or bad)

went to arab street with friends yest

in alphabetical order

anjana, cindy, huda, iqah, leonard, matthew, syazni

went abit hyper all of us

talked, ate, camwhored 372 pictures worth!, talked again

quite boring ;) nah... enlightening, enriching, exciting. LOL

went to blue jaz cafe today with charlene n ila

been awhile since we talked so long

again picts up another day

Nice FOOD

DELICIOUS FOOD

cannot finish

but got lizards alot. LOL

2008-08-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

This is my life story! miao
I was found my fabulous owner now under the blk
She fed me and made me fat
and gave me a place to sleep and eat and run around!

Jackie: Who are you??? miao
Me: Hello nice to meet you! let's shake hands! miao
Jackie: Oi. Who is this bugger who sleeps on my bed? miao

Me: Look at me look at me! I can roll around! miao

Jackie: So? I'm bored....
Me: LOok LOook
Jackie: I'm Sleepy shall sleep now..

Me: Ok so will I.. miaoMe: Hold my hand ok?
Jackie: *snores*

After a few hours

Jackie: Let's wait and see who shall open the door.. miao...

hahahaha ok retarded i know but yeah. They're just so bloody cute..

2008-07-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Pictures from Ramen Ten and Delirium, anjana's production.

i dont know why the pictures turned blue must be some function in my camera that i fogot to turn off. hahaha. i'm waiting for picts from leo n anjana.. lol.

delirium was hilarious. ok for me at least. haha nice nice.

i miss the walks on the beach
the times when we had more free time
the times when we would meet in the morning and go for picnics, swim, the zoo
i want holidays
i don't want to grow old
i don't want to work
why must it be different?

i want to stop working and just be free to go out with my friends aft sch
hai
why must things always be different?

2008-07-18T21:47:00.004+08:00

Fridays are always a dilemma to me
it's confusing
i'm so glad that the week is over for tep
yet at the same time i have work at 9am the next day
which is sooo annoying
every saturday i wake up and think

should i go to work today?

Then i think of the money[which is not so very much] and i think might as well. urgh
i need a break
badly
i think i shall take leave on fri
production is finally over

of course it's not over overer til the fat lady sings
and in this case, it's not over until the supervisor sees and approves all our videos, touched up, edited, etc and all that
haiz
i loathe, despise, hate production
let's see the stories my group and i have done so far since stopover 1

1. LOL
2. LOL
3. LOL
4. First Aid 101
5. Outrageous
6. Stand up for singapore
7. Know your sports
8. Know your sports
9. Know your sports
10. Mindwarp
11. Dreamnistic

1. Celebrity Style
2. Celebrity Style
3. Celebrity Style
4. AMK Hunts
5. Biathalon
6. Sounds Wrong
7. Health Watch
8. Health Watch
9. Outrageous Outlook
10. Only You
11. Updos Todos

WOW! lots lots

song of production: Replay
Phrase of production: Dabong[however it's spelt], hantu tetek
event of production: haven decided

people around me are all passing their TP
i'm scared for my own one
i need a break
i want a ds
no money
im losing touch with myself
i want an iffah-pampering day
i want to perm my hair
no money

am i losing them?

2008-07-17T09:05:00.005+08:00

I hate animal abusers who kick, poison, hit these animals.

I hate people who abandon their pets just coz they're old, become a pest or they are just lazy to take care of him anymore. =(

I dug out this little kitten from under my blk staircase. it was mewing so loud i could hear it from

like the nkf dialysis centre near my house.(ok in other words its quite far)

imagine if u hear a little kitten mewing loudly in its super high pitched voice

coz its lost

coz its hungry

coz its missing its mommy

coz its lonely

wouldn't you go and find it?

it looked so scared

and i curse the person who tried to kill it with axe oil

so i brought it up and bathed it and gave it food

which it ate super noisily and greedily like u can hear it licking n munching

uber cuteness

my mom named it zorro coz of its eye patch

lol

and it started to warm up and slept in my room in my super huge pet carrier

so i got the kitten on Tuesday

Yesterday i brought it out to play.

the bf was busy trying to disturb it so it will wake up coz it went to sleep after like constant mewing and tiredness.

and he keeps calling it retarded but then he'll call it his cat. LMAO

uber cuuuute! KAWAII! lalala

it's a mixture of jacky's laziness and chomel's active and playfulness. like super duperly...

haha got more pictures but i shall upload later bcoz my camera is not with me...

iffah is bored

she doesn't want to start work

coz she's lazy

and she's feeling sick

aww poor iffah

that was all typed by me

u can tell how bored i am that i refer myself in the third person

i want money

i want my license

i want a pink DS

i shall blog about my lazy pampered fat cats

they love to show off that their body is like super flexible can bend here and there. -.-

2008-06-30T16:25:00.002+08:00

I just got back from a super loong super humid super tiring day out of campus filming. can't wait to edit it though.
marvelous
delicious
yummy
beautiful
cakes

even though laura and me brought cam we didnt manage to take pictures
too busy and we forgot we got cameras
mommy drove us around to 3 diff places. yay! save money on cab

shall upload pictures soon though

i want to shop too
i want a ds
i want my clutch hobo bag
i want a new phone
my classmate just got a to-die for envy-full phone
damn damn sleek n nice.
woaaaah

ok im getting tired n sleepy and i keep disturbing sara playing her sally spa.. oops.
i wanna play too.

2008-06-29T12:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the MCYS National Family Celebration's closing ceremony and ila, char, zaf n habez covered the event. The bf and I headed down after work and after searching high and low for QB house for him to cut his hair. it looks better now. LOL

There was this grp of ppl from Best Friends I think it's a pet shop or something with 5 beautiful, handsome huskys. OMG soooo pretty and soooo cute.

Aside from us, leo n eoin popped by as well. Allan Wu was there with his family too!
so at 7pm we watched Ratatouille underneath the stars. literally. outdoor movie. it was a super nice experience. super bright stars too bad i couldn't capture them. =(

I LOVE LOVE LOVE SUNDAYS
FINALLY I CAN SLEEP IN, FINALLY I CAN REST FINALLY FINALLY

random blogging and i may sound like an ah mah for sayin this but i miss cold storage!
hahaha
my mother had an apiphany and sudd wanted to eat salad and of course, our house just haaad to be out of thousand island.-.-

so being a gracious and nice daughter, went to esso to find. nil. the 2 CCC ppl didnt even KNOW what i was talking about. showed me mayo n tobasco -.-'''

went to 2 mama shops. nothing,

went to NTUC!!! of course hoping they would have coz its NTUC after all.
but
NO NOTHING NOT EVEN A SMALL BOTTLE.
asked 2 ppl of course both again CCC ppl and they din know what i was talking abt. and one even said if there don have means don have. -.-
i don believe im blind nor am i marketing retarded. i know where the sauces are. where the mayo is. where the thousand island should be. BUT NTUC TO NOT HAVE!!! -.-

yes sooo explains why i miss cold storage where everything is neat and easy to find with big clear unblocked signs as to where everything is.

2008-06-27T23:06:00.004+08:00

I've been lazy, sickly, busy and moody to blog

lazy = i'm too tired to blog most of the time

sickly = just recovered from flu n fever

busy = everyday seems like a busy day in production TEP. hai. i want more holidays

moody = fine fine fine i failed my tp. pfft and someone just comes up to me one morning and ask if im gg to take my driving again. dunno how that person knows also but urgh spoil my day only. -.-

straight after multicam last week, production starts again this week. fine it's alr friday. TGIF

but must still edit, think of story, blah blah blah. hai.. im so sick of tep. yes sick as in MC, fever, flue the whole enchalata.

my next tp is 5th sept. i hate myself for failing. boo. i know myself it's not even close to any of my better days. i could feel my rib cage and skin protecting my heart moving, beating as it thudded damn hard and fast. nb chicken mcnugget. hai

oh ipp in sept. whoppeeeee. i chose:

1. Broadcast

2. Journalism

3. Events Management

well here are pictures long overdue from multicam. i don give a damn how i looked. it was effing cold in studio M. it's cold everywhere. Avid, premiere, studio.

ok i'm whinning. hai.

i need something to brighten my day

like... a DS or a driver's license or new clothes and bags or a holiday trip.

2008-06-21T18:33:00.004+08:00

i know to some people i might seem greedy

or pampered or what

but

I WANT A NINTENDO DS IN CORAL PINK OR ROSE PINK OR NAVEL BLUE OR ENAMEL RED or was it the other way around. oh well

haizzz

the reason is because

1. COOKING MAMA

2. DS HAS A STYLUS

3. MORE GIRLY GAMES ARE ON DS and PSP mostly has those kinda tomboyish games even though i like playing patapon, fifa street, etc.

4. I JUST WANT SOMETHING New

5. IM ABIT BORED AND WANNA PLAY NEW NEW GAMES ON DS

6. I JUST WANT ONE

okok fine

this week has finally come to an end

no more multicam

it has been uber tiring and uber irritating

i don know why

i just know im super glad its over but super sianded that im still in production

pictures of multicam coming up

im lazy to upload them

Fall For You

- Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Days like today are those I wish will last forever
I love these kinda days
I love how we are now
It's the weekend where I get to miss you.

2008-06-11T22:15:00.008+08:00

I just HAVE to blog about today

my group and I had our celebrity style photoshoot today

and it turned out fantabulous!

hahaha

we can become personal stylists

laura - wardrobe

cindy - wardrobe

iffah - hair & makeup

yu lin - ermm? hair?

hahahahaha

eoin aka justin timberlake actually looks decent in skinny jeans despite his uber skinny sticky legs. oops okok

only his shirt belongs to him

points to whoever can guess who the rest of it belongs to. LOL.

look a runaway minimart! lol. okok lame iffah.

Let's welcome Mr. Slim Shady
Now the real slim shady please stand up please stand up! LOL
I've seen Leo in this kinda outfit

AND.....

LETS WELCOME...

MS. CHARLENE LOHan! LOL!

Ms. Lindsay Lohan! LOL

She really portrayed perfectly the diva!
Ms. Hangover. LOL. the blurry effect was on purpose. LOL

my favourite photo of her!

mr. timberlake, eminem and the cameraman. lol

2008-06-10T16:56:00.007+08:00

aft 2 panadols
finally getting 8 hours of slp,
i woke up to an empty house, a phonecall and rushed myself to the hospital.

I spent 12 hours
12 bloody hours at ttsh
and from 9am to bloody 2pm, inside those 12hours, i was waiting and waiting and waiting for dr after dr, test after test. sooo annoying
its not me so i cant complain much
and oh so fabulous, being around ill ppl made me sicker. -.-

i have never felt so guilty for taking leave from sch
its not even for my own purpose and not that i had a choice
haiz

haiz
i dont know why ive been feeling so cranky so moody so pms this 2 weeks. its annoying
its irritating i know and my sweet bf has been taking most of the effects from all that annoying-ness and irritating-ness. i'm sorry. truly.
i hate myself sometimes.
thank you for putting up with me. i appreciate it alot. love.

im gg slp my moodiness off. and head back to the hospital at night.

goodbye euro. goodbye spain.

why do bad things always come with the good?
why do tears always come after laughter?
why does sadness always come after happiness?

p/s i don like you. open your eyes bigger nxt time

2008-05-31T00:04:00.009+08:00

ben barnes is...................................................................................................

Prince Caspian.
i swear he is hot. hahaha even if he is old. =s
should i spoil it by saying smtg here? hahaha. okok better not in case bored people read my blog and scold me for spoiling for them.

High King Peter is sooooo not hot loooo. and the younger brother just removed his braces recently. can tell from the way he speaks? LOL.

They should sooo have a better photo of him here la... he looks like silhouetted here.
For my monthsy this mth, i took the flyer. but not fair lo... you took it before me. for free somemore. bleah. but the view is nicer at night =p. don care. LOL

it was uber cloudy that day but this pict looks damn nice. the sky and night lights =)
i don't know what's up with this pict i zoomed in too much but it looks nice. of me. i look like i have super thin thighs though. i can't fit into alot of my jeans nicely alr. boo =(
i looked fugly tt day so this is the only nice pict i like in the flyer.
too bad my camera died halfway when we were at flyer.
i feel high! literally. we're on top of sg! highest pt. =D

ooo ooo ooo
i went for fish reflexology
SOO TICKLISH
my lappy's bluetooth doesnt seem to be working. again. so i cant send picts from fisshi time
LOL.
it feels damn ticklish that i think i kicked and killed a fish by ACCIDENT. omg.
you can actually feel ur feet feels cleaner at the end of the day. LOL

i don't get why people must act that way
do others owe you a living or something?
if they're purposely acting as if others are not there, sorry to disappoint that there are other
people around to spoil your time.
it's rude when ppl usually do that
do unto others what you want others to do unto you
don't treat someone that way just coz you think they'll be acting like u assume they will
its all about loooooove baby.

tak tau malu
fikir pasal diri sendiri
macam semuorang ni hutang kau diri diorang gitu
ey. bangun la
kau da ade yang punya
yang kau gatal sangat tu apasal
masa dah beruba la eh
aper dier maseh kene layan kau aje
kene kluar dgn kau buatpe?
siape kau nak cakap gitu?
siape kau yang semuorang kene ikut perintah kau, cakap kau, ikut mane mane kau pergi ikut ape ape kau cakap huh!
siape kau nak tolak aku ke tepi

OMG ive never typed anything in malay before
its all for testing
and i wanted to test how it'll look like and how i'd do it
honestly, it looks so broken and directly translated. oops. hahahahaha

i think some people. inc me sometimes have a super small and narrow perspective of what's fat.
if you're not a size 48(no offence to those who are) you're not fat.
if someone can still pull you when you're sitting on a chair, you're not fat.
if you've put on weight, it doesnt mean you'e fat. you could've actually gotten healthier compared to your previous aneroxic looking self last time.
if you want to know what is fat, go and liquify your entire body in adobe photoshop alot alot of times and you'll know what's fat.
so if i can carry and lift anyone of you even 5 centimetres of the ground, you're not fat.

doesn't after rain sun kissed roads look very dreamy?
long winding road
grey clouds
blue sky

everyone that comes into your life, leaves sooner or later
its those that stay longer that have an impact on you
its harder to let go then
but my dear love, you can...
i'm always here for you...
cheers.

2008-05-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

im so pissed i can just throw the whole building if i can lift the whole building.

2008-05-20T16:30:00.006+08:00

i finally got my camera today

the service i've gotta say sucks
i mean i know that it's not a real job
and you don't get paid
and that this isnt your real job
but you're
working under like customer relationship management
and you're like serving
a customer (me)
you don't ignore a customer when they come in and not when
there's like 6 of you in a "store" and not even one bothered to say hi or yes
can i help you
no all of you just continued talking amongst yourselves or
played game
oblivious to the customer me

you don't say to a
paying customer that they'd get their product a few days later(mind you, you
said it was 3 days excluding weekends) and then call the customer 2 days later
than promised and say that they'd only get it the NEXT WEEK!

wth. i was
extremely disappointed with the service. not only me but my witness charlene
and upon asking whether there's a carrying case coz you said you'd try to
get me one, you asked me to call the person who said that..

quote
"oh. call the person ah"

what the toot

and then when i took
my item which u so helpfully just held out to me and never even bother to help
me put it in coz my hands were full carrying soo many items you just went back
to ur psp again ignoring MY. ME. MOI. YOUR CUSTOMER's existence.

URGH!!!
if it were any other RETAIL SHOP I'D ALREADY COMPLAIN.

is this how you
treat your customers if you were working in a real job?
i hope not

so bloody irritated.

but nvm. i got my camera.
=)
and of course i was bloody excited.
more than bloody 1 week can! -.-
*grumbles grumbles* *mumbles mumbles*

oh wells
went to find a protective pouch for my camera and then started cam whoring with the bf. =D

i just had to take this fat fluffy cannot even sit upright coz his head is oversized, obese tortoise. hahahahahha

there's a new limited ed of cleo. MINI CLEO!! OMFG so irritated coz i bought the usual sized one the day before and saw this. -.- sooo nice! haizzz

look at the bloody huge insect bite i got. if ulook upside down it looks like a rabbit. hahahhaa.
ive been getting alot of insect bites lately. the last time i counted it was 9! NINE! and i didnt even go hiking or camping or whatever shit.

oh did i tell you? im so smart that i graduated a year before all my peers!
naaaah just joking. this was for filming purposes. sbm grad vid filming purposes. hahaha

graduation's this week. in exactly 1 year, i'd be graduating. hopefully. =D how time flies past

it's a lil late but lemme recap since year 1
first day of sch so many of us were late coz we waited for each other
and mr. azhar walked out of the classroom with some speech about how the news is forever on time and we shouldn't be late

alot of ppl had golden hair

won 2 awards for danceworks.
danced and danced and danced practically. hahaha

cant remember much about y1. shit i have short term memory

year 2
hmmm.. made more friends.
opened up more

had class chalet which was damn cook coz this time i could stay

had a new addition to my life. no not a child. hmm a dragon ball haired, irritating, caring, crazy, ding dong bf. hehehehhe.... i mean all of tt in a gd way. =D

shit cannot remember again die!

yr 3
is jsut beginning. hahahaha

til nxt time. ciao bella.

2008-05-16T10:30:00.002+08:00

STUPID RETARDED SHITHEAD CRM!
make me wait and excited for nothing
i should've gotten my camera 2 DAYS AGO!

and now, i have to wait until tuesday. TUESDAY!!! =(
sadded. Sadded. SAD! WHY WHY! =(

2008-05-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY FINALLY BOUGHT A CAMERA!!!
LOVE!!!
ITS THE CANON DIGI IXUS 80 IS!!!!

IN PINK!
That's the most unique colour coz the blue was fugly and the chocolate brown looked retarded. LOL

nyahahahaha!

BUT

i'm only getting it next week. sian-ded -.-

fyi: i did not copy xx i only found out a few min ago reading her blog tt she has a similar one. -.-

bought it at sch's it fair at $399. hehehee

LOVES LOVES LOVES

my whole family plus relatives are screaming ouside at the living room coz of this indo horror movie. -.- RETARDED. SOO BLOODY LOUD

why watch when u're gg to scream?

i can only hear 3-4 woman screaming loud loud the other voices just gets drowned

working whole day tmr. SIAN!

2008-05-03T18:41:00.005+08:00

in just a week-in a day-1 hour, my hair changed to this:
ok cannot see? or think it didnt look bad see this:

what shananigan disaster is this!?!? i was soooo pissed off
didn't know whether to scream or cry or what
urgh
i looked like a chao ah lian mix minah!
note the word LOOKED
my hair is now decently black

It wasn't suppose to be this light! it was suppose to be light BROWN not BLONDE!
='(

in case u didnt notice my new bf...
here. my matching dragon ball hair bf!

his hair was suppose to be dark dark dark brown black
and it turned out COPPER!

thanks to leo and his amazing toilet!
we managed to turn our hair back to normal
normal BUT UBER DRY!
BOOHOO!!! MY LOVELY HAIR! DRY LIKE BROOM!
CRIEEEEEEES

oh well it looks better now i guess for me..

i came across this as i was reading shahidah's entry

Forbidden Phrases
1. "Relax."
2. "I love you." (During a fight)
3. "It's up to you."
4. "You knew I was this way..."
5. "[Nothing]"
Magic Words
1. "Just tell me everything."
2. "You are just so beautiful."
3. "Sorry. It was my fault."

agreed to some. disagreed to some. LOL. i guess every girl is different. to understand her, u need to be god. coz she herself cant understand her sometimes. even though i hate to admit it, im egoistic, im selfish at times, im proud, im stubborn. all these things that we girls complain abt guys sometimes, including me.

it takes alot for me to say i'm sorry sometimes when i'm wrong because im too proud im selfish when i say i want u for myself coz i don like sharing. and im egoistic coz i expect an apology when you do something wrong. and in this rs, i'm still learning coz i dont want to let u go.

during this final 6 mths, no even lesser now 5mths in tep i want to learn to
treasure my friends more. spend as much quality time with my friends as much as
i can.
iqah, ila, charlene,
this is our last time (if we don get attachement same
place) working together and seeing each other almost everyday. let's make the best of
it! =) love u gals muchies =D
*sob sob* iffah's so emo sia...

i've never been more afraid
but i gues being afraid is good
coz it means that i care
it's a whole new something for me
an eye opener

2008-04-27T18:16:00.008+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged and so much has happened
TEP's a neverending rush and fatigue
i come home each night, talk on the phone awhile and just lie dead in bed until 7am the next morning.
rushing for deadlines completing 2 3-5min production every week.
OH GOSH!
what did i sign myself up for 2 years ago!

but still,
it's been a pleasure working esp when time just flies by without me realising it
hmm i might even consider gg into production or programming during attachment.
lets see how print goes for me during the last 6 weeks

oh and i have 3 breaks each day and a pantry at the TEP room. MUAHAHAHA

caught up with fart fart yest. okok i haven seen fadila since... i cant remember when
went to RP's concert with her
and oh gosh we're like telepathic or smtg
both of us were wearing the same thing from head to toe.
blue top, black jeans, even the same bag. -.- retarded. she copies my dressing all the time
STOP WEARING BLACK TO SCH
i know u love me and want to dress up for me but dress up abit instead of what u told me u wear to sch too so i wont be so embarrassed. LOL. kidding. u know i love u! =D

have you bought this month's seventeen mag? ok i admit i bought it ONLY THIS MONTH coz i was bored waiting for fad fad
look at this [what boys have to say on girls and rs]

girls are difficult to understand. They're a mystery to me!
Yes 60% No 40% -.-

i would date a grl who was from a diff cultural or religious background
Yes 74% i guess i know where u fit in baby =) No 26%

i've said "i love you" to a grl without meaning it
yes 40% which is plain retarded say it and mean it! no 60%

i'm usually first attracted to a girl's
1. eyes 60%
2. smile 10%
3. skin 10%
4. legs 10%
5. hair 10%

i guess to a girl the littlest thing matters
like who says i love you first
and what u ans when she asks whether she looks fat
i think its sorta true that girls are more egotistical than guys

got many more questions buy seventeen if u wanna know more. i could become a spokesperson sia. LOL

sometimes i feel i shouldt love you too much coz its scary when i think abt how sad i'd feel if i lost you. i dont wanna know the feeling. i dont wanna feel like that anymore. its scary. to think that i'd have to let u go. i couldnt stop crying.

2008-04-08T13:44:00.006+08:00

i hate the weather
it doesnt rain when i don go out
it rains when i plan to go out
make up your mind
i hate making plans then having to cancel them coz of you. weather
school's starting cant u like stop being so cranky and stop raining already
haiz

anyways
im glad caridee won antm coz the other grl i cant even remember her name now
is just so fake and i love caridee's personality
and of course her gorgeous winning photos from the start til the end =)
/edited: oh her name is melrose! now i remember. LOL

speaking of which another winner
megan
in that's amore
if you dont know what the hell im talking about
its the prequel of a shot at love with tila tequila
if you still dont know what im talking about
go to mtv.com. losers

speaking of which again
tila tequila's going to give love another shot at love
with a shot at love with tila tequila 2.
battle of the sexes AGAIN
can't wait. yay!
the lesbians this round arent so hot though
and looking at the trailer, there's going to be more cat n dog fighting
and more ambulance coming and more dangerous fighting
oh wells
what some people would do to find love

i hate the weather
speaking of which

happy belated birthday biatch
i wished u on ur bday but no harm wishing u here
happy 20th fadila bte noor sidek! LOL.

/edited

ok so i went out with the bf then

hehehe

went shopping

ok I WENT SHOPPING

bought a bag

went to eat at thai express

super long haven eaten tom yam

but it was sucky coz the fish wasnt fresh and i felt weird after that

walked around again

window shopping.

it sucks when you're not rich

coz u can only window shop

i need more moolah

LOL

went to eat ben & jerry's

this combo called merlion or something close

i love you to bits & pieces. =)
and i bought THIS! =D

YAY!!!!

my moon sparkle! =D

ok i simply couldnt resist it!

i'm a sucker for fragrances!

i think i have like 7 favourite perfumes now

not counting deodrants and those other stuff that i rarely use!

it was soo soo soo delicious! =D

i looooooooove

2008-04-03T16:00:00.001+08:00

the weather's been horrible
see it's dark again
rain shine rain shine rain shine
URGH it's suppose to be SPRING not rain
-__- horrible

i haven been on a real holiday in AGES
can i pleeease go overseaaasss =(

i've been in an up and down mood just like the weather
bleahx

shit shit shit don't rain laaaaaa
i need to go to work
URGH WORK!

i want more holidays
school's starting in a week
TEP to be exact
and for a WHOLE YEAR!
i wont be getting term breaks or semester holidays
booo!

this is such a random post

ok went to a film festival with matt n eoin yest
it was a good experience and the short films were mostly good
most of it were commissioned by film commission so they were big budget films
with make up artists and what not
there were some really good one's like murphy's law and this film about coffee
matt, eoin, anjana, amanda n jessica's grop short film was not the worse which is great
LOL
the place, substation was sooo dark that i kept tripping and we didnt realise that we were sitting on foldable chairs like those the back support can lift up one until like halfway through
-___-
ok fine retarded

after tt walked to the national museum and BEHOLD!!!
my first RED GREEK STATUE
which is soooo "modest"
lol

met sara, leo, bez n kel at vivo coz they were celebrating leo n sara's bday
and sat around awhile and then rushed and ran to catch the last train home -.-
i feel DAMN UNHEALTHY coz i was panting already
damn it!

2008-03-28T23:34:00.008+08:00

have u ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry

have you ever....... have u ever.......

lalalalala

i'm glad the dark clouds have passed

i'm glad i can finally see the stars out at night

hopefully the sun will shine bright again

i want to go to langkawi!!!

=( my cousins went without me last year coz i had school -___-

like. retarded. i want to go go go go!

reading xiaxue's latest entry made me want to go even more

haiizzz

the clear blue-green sea instead of murky blue-brown waters filled with water bottles and seaweed

the white natural sady beaches

langkawi real seafood instead of frozen cooked ones

no more holidays from 14 april til march nxt year! BOOO!!!!

sadded

emo

singapore should celebrate more stuff

so there'll be more holidays

hmmm like.. i dunno what la.

president's birthday or whatever.

i need to continue my korean and taiwanese dramas soon

coz i keep watching halfway then the bf keeps intro-ing me to

ermmmm funny animes to watch like gintama and history's greatest disciple kenichi

he's easily amused

this is such a random entry

i shall post pictures of my bday dinner with the bf and my parents (seperately of course)

pictures were courtesy of SEw910i -.-

that sounds pathetic i need a digi soon! =(( BOO! we went to paris! look the eiffel tower behind us! =X

my mom just wants to kpo and take pict with me n my firehouse -.- LOL

my bday this year was a little sad

shall not elaborate more because it will just spoil my mood

im disappointed

haiz

it's been a sucky month!
i wish april will bring more joy into my life

i want a sadaharU!!!

it's huge, white and eat's ppl's heads! LMAO

okok its an anime dog from gintama

DAMN DMAN DAMN KAWAIIII!!!

CUTE RIGGHHHHT! LMAO

p/s: told u this was a random post. LOL

2008-03-26T01:41:00.006+08:00

Watched rule #1 just now
not bad la
scary
the bf n i jumped together a couple of times LOL
NOT ME! HE WANTED TO WATCH!

Cassie-Is It You

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there
When I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need? x2

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right

And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need? x2

Someone who won't take me for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need? x2

Happy monthsary baby.
I love you v much
you're someone who understands me so well, my temper, my moods, my behaviour
you're someone who i can be myself and not pretend to be someone else
you're someone i can share my pain, who i can trust
you're the one I've been waiting for
xoxo

2008-03-20T14:18:00.012+08:00

im back from chalet

it was great

thank you guys and gals for coming! =Dthe chalet went on smoothly without any incident or spookiness LOL

first day, checked in at 4+pm where all of us realised we ever went to aranda before
mom sent us there and the grls camwhored (without me coz i was in front) in the car. LOL

im not gg to post all the pictures because there're a total of 158 pictures taken
gals if u want picts just ask LOL

this is us waiting for my mom to pick us up

we're all excited and cant wait to take pictures in our room 2324! LOL

went swimming and we had the whole pool to ourselvesshan't put up any pool picts coz we all look too sexy in them LOL kidding
AHAHAHA aft swimming waited for ila and my family to comeso we cooked some food and by tt time all of us were damn hungry so we stole some food and fried for ourselvesLOL

night came, family came, sparklers came
ok the chalet didnt go without total incident
i burnt my finger while cooking
and ila burnt herself with sparklers
oops
see tts why bday grls shouldnt be the ones serving! LOL

my cousins gave me a ripcurl purse and a set of adidas deo and eu de toilette and bag
thank you love u muchies! =D

ok we mahjong-ed and black jack-ed the whole night
not bad now all of us know how to play mahjong! YAY! we're all great teachers! iqah won more times than i did i think. -.- no luck at all! hahaha

iman, reyn n matt came and another disciple of mahjong was born! LOL
coolness
wanted to swim again but all of us were stuck at the mahjong table. AGAIN! HAHAHHA it's addictive

cindy came and we mahjonged more and got our first present from our friends
hahahaha
then she left coz she had to work and we got ready for the party

actually, THANKS ALOT TO THE MEN FOR COOKING! LOL
what would we all do without you hahhaaha
then came presents time
where we gave ila her gift and they gave me their gift

and OMG CHANEL CHANCE!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! HAHAHAHAHA
im a sucker for fragrances! =D THANKS GUYS ALOT
u can tell i was really shocked. hahaha
cam whored again and again til ppl came hahaha

iman n matt "surprised" us with a bday cake

men. -.-

but the cake was delicious oreo tiramisu! =D

and the silly best friend just refused to take pictures with me -.-
so there wasnt enough room second night we pulled out the bed and made a long long mattress so 7 of us could slp LOL we didnt slp til like 6am i think
and woke up at 830 freaking am coz the check out time was between bloody 9-10am!!!

wtf!! haiz even hotel check out time is 11am earliest! =( BOOO!!!!

should do this again hhahaha!
happy belated bday ila!
these are my gifts... thanks! even though they're one week early! LOL

end of entry.. gg off to work soon. sian! =(

2008-03-16T12:36:00.005+08:00

Overdue pictures of my first bday present

hahaha

look at my cute nails

the best thing! it's free!

i did it myself! cute eh? LOL

they look like dominos

the wonders of household items

bowling with cousins at occ last night
had to wait for almost 2 hours for a lane. -.- sianz
there were 11 of us bowling 13 if u count some shared frames or my younger cousins
bowled til like 2am uber tired
went for supper at sembawang rd
and reached home at 330
shaaaaaagged

gg slp again now
ciao
can't wait for tmr! =D

2008-03-15T00:32:00.003+08:00

Watched Step Up 2 just now
fantabulous- a combination of fantastic and fabulous
hahaha

i think personally it was better than step up
maybe coz there were more dancing rather than talking
but channing tatum came out like awhile only
and the cast wasn't as good looking as step up

the dances were great
good story line
funny, touching, romantic, and just gets your feet tapping (mine at least)

i know i'm probably spoiling it abit but hey!!! hahaha i loooooooooove the dance in the rain lalalala
a movie to catch! =D
it didnt seem like only 1.5 hours. it seemed like 2. hahaha

my cat's mewing now.. brb

oh wells she just wanted some luuuurve LOL
can't wait for chalet can't wait for chalet can't wait for chalet
i hope everything goes smoothly
no arguments
no disasters (touch wood)
and i hope the weather will be like today =D

i'm happy, contented and in love with you
i can see you're trying
and i've never been happier
i hope this time of bliss lasts
and i love love love you baby

is it you is it you
baby you're the one i've been waiting for
you could be the one i need
lalalalala
-is it you by cassie =D

i shall carry on with my anime, drama watching and manga reading now

2008-03-12T00:46:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING ILA!!!

Went out with the bestie on sunday. pictures finally came in coz i don't have a digi cam anymore! RAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRR

-.- silly grl yawn and spoil the picture.

OH MY GOOOOOOD! EYEBAGSS!!!

i know u love me. =x LOL

Typical, angry also still smile. LOL.
Let's go out again soon! i had fun! =D
Love you lots lots!

Can't wait for the chalet!
Sleepless nights, talking with the gals
yay! =D

2008-03-08T02:36:00.006+08:00

i wish there was a ctrl+z button for life: to undo mistakes u've made
i wish there was a ctrl+x button in life: to delete whatever things u want from ur life
i wish there was a control+c and ctrl+v in ur life to repeat whatever happy moments or things in ur life alot of times. =D

watched leap years
it was better than i expected
some critics are just too hard to please that they give movies the ratings that are soo low and undeserved
true the movie had some weird cuts here and there
and it was weird n nvr seen before when it cut to quotes =s
but over the storyline was nice i think abit unpredictable but maybe to some it was predictable
and sad and i wouldn't give it 1 star at all -.-

KS and suneetha in the movie reminds me of us
of how we ended up together
even though i didn't use to hate you. LOL

movies to watch
- rule #1
- step up 2

speaking of step up 2, enrique iglesias is SOOO SOOO HOT
watch this MV and tell me you don't think so...
i'll slaughter you. LOL. kidding

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aduyBSssQ5w

2008-03-06T01:23:00.002+08:00

had my first practical driving lesson today
fuyo!!! super fun but super scary
hey im a natural at driving! LOL
naaah i suck at turning because i tend to press on the accelarator by accident
if you do not know what i'm talking abt, nvm

and the website to book my pract test SUCKS
there're no available dates and times, cannot refresh, cannot see the next 15 days
the timings are like 8-9am
wtf! so early

ok... i soooo wanna talk abt it but it will probably bore anyone reading
i don't even know who reads my blog except the bf, cindy, OMG that's pathetic. LOL
i don't care. the lesser the better i think. hahaha

well my instructor's funny, he keeps chewing gum, throwing it out the window, and chewin another one again
lalala can't wait for the nxt lesson

and i received my first bday gift alr
super early 21 days earlier
haahaa
but i dont mind
i got tricked into the gift
oh wells details are unnecessary
but i finally got the adidas watch i've been eyeing since like LAST YEAR!
hahahaha
thank you v much baby. i love you. i love the gift! =DD

ermmm im lazy to take pictures.
coz i don't have a digi cam anymore. =((
I WANT A FUCKING CAMERA
RETURN MY MONEY LAAAA WALAAAAAAAAO
EMOOOO
i want my money
to buy camera
for 17march!!! =((
camera!
camera!!
camera!!!
CAMERA!!!!
CAMERA!!!!
CAMERA!!!!!

cries... =((
my camera feels like its drifting further and further away... *sob sob*

2008-02-27T23:01:00.004+08:00

The Cardigans - Lovefool

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing
That I can do to make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
That I ought to stick to another man
A man that surely deserves me
But I think you do...

So I cry, and I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
So I cry and I beg for you to
Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care 'bout anything but you...

Lately I have desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way

To make you stay
Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go

So I cry, and I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
So I cry and I beg for you to
Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care 'bout anything but you...

Love me, love me(Say that you love me)
Fool me, fool me(Go on and fool me)
Love me, love me(I know that you need me)
I can't care 'bout anything but you.

i feel soooo lazy to work
time has been passing so super duper fast
that i just wanna enjoy my holidays
and slack and sleep at home
and spend time with you

L:Change the world was sucky btw
i think i've watched almost every movie on cinema with you alr
hahaha
nvm... lol

2008-02-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

happy monthsary
don't know why we didnt take any picts today
i was a lil off today coz of ~~pms~~ ms.
it's a blessing as well as a curse seriously.
a woman's monthly

a. it helps u to check whether u're pregnant (gd and bad if u're planning to have children)
b. gives u the shittiest and a hell of stomach cramps
c. gives u pre-m pimples
d. makes you moody
e. helps u escape from stuff u don't wanna do coz u can use ur cramps as an excuse
f. makes u feel preggy coz ur stomach bloats
g. you feel uncomfortable coz of the mini pampers
h. must choose what to wear carefully
i. during fasting mth don need fast, (budden still must pay back)
j. ooo i found out tt woman actually use it as an excuse to avoid sex. coolness

see there're soooo many cons compared to pros. -.-

hmm the song on replay in my head now is baby boy.
it's such a sec sch song but sooooo my favourite for the whole year. LOL.
anyone has the song? send me pretty please

2008-02-22T22:56:00.004+08:00

pictures from gambling night courtesy of leo's camera =)

the rain stops

and as the dark clouds pass

the sun starts to shine it's bright light

i've been sick

i dunno why but i think it's the weather

it finally rained heavily today after days of non-peaceful wind

the weather has been threatening to pour for days alr

and i got sick

working tmr =)

moolah... im broke. LOL

2008-02-20T20:55:00.004+08:00

thanks leo for organizing gambling session
next time earlier ok so we can stay long long =)

irony is a bunch of crap
and i don feel like talking to anyone right now

to my bestie... i'm here if u need me
lets get together soon k fad?
i miss you
and to my sec sch friends also i miss them
yusmar, hakim, nad it was soooo good to talk to them even though for a short while
haiz... why is time passing by so quickly nowadays?

and lets get together soon gals charlene, iqah, ila!
for another dinner
i had fun last night =)
and charlene! don't disappear again if you're reading this!

i need to make myself feel better
put yourself in my shoes n think whether you'd feel the same way
i don't know wat to think, how to feel, what to do... just make me happy just tell me you love me over and over again.just tell me you're sorry again just tell me not to think about it anymore just tell me im the only one in your heart

2008-02-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

it's the holidays and im suppose to be blogging more but instead,
my blog's like eoin's. cobewbs forming around. LOL. oops
okok so i like splurged on smtg big
guess what?
MOVIES! hahahahaha. ok retarded
but ok have so much free time tt me n the bf went to watch like ermm 3 movies??

1. AH LONG PTE LTD - damn stupidly retardedly funny. even though some ppl call it retarded i call it plain hilarious. coz i havent laughed til my stomach hurt in ages! hahaha ok good exercise for the tummy. GO CATCH IT BEFORE IT GETS PULLED OUT!

2. PS. I LOVE YOU - i think movies i watch this month are far extremes. i cried damn bloody alot throughout this movie. ok fine its a sappy movie and not v entertaining but the sadnes really gets to you and trust me, if you need a good cry, this is it. I crid til his shirt was damp. oops. and i thought he didnt realise. hahahaha.

3. JUMPER - the most RETARDED AND NONSENSICAL SHOW I'VE EVER WATCHED SWEAR! i was like wtf half the time. there was only like what 10mins total worth of fighting? and stupidly, the making of the movie which i watched, basically shows everything. The movie's only what 88 mins? -.- haiz... sian

ok so basically i've been working 4 days a week. abit tired. but i need the moolah. not every mth is cny tt i can get hang baos. =D lol. how's YOUR holidays? working again at jalepeno and kumon tmr.

im frankly NOT looking forward to tep. 830-530. =(( so bloody bloody LONG! and march will be an even more expensive mth! =( need moolah. haha at least i'll have one less present to buy.. *hint hint* LOL. =)) maybe i should be like sara and expand my wishlist. LOL. KIDDING!!!!

2008-02-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

my sleeping clock is going cuckoo

i cannot sleep before 1am

i wake up by 9am, go back to sleep, wake up an hour later, go back to sleep again and end up just lying in bed until i feel like getting out

the bf's finally back. yay! ok i sound like zaf but oh wells i've never been apart and not msging or what for 3 days. so there.

i took up a new job. at jalepeno peppers at singapore flyer. are u jealous? i visited the flyer way before any of u. and it looks gorgeous with a mini indoor park with plants, trees and fountain or whatever. it opens today! =) go visit it! the flyer looks ginormours from right below it. =) have a bite at jalepeno's too. their food's great. *trying to advertise* it serves western, italian and mexican food. though its closed on tues for a corporate event. qatar airways.

it has a superb view of the river, cbd area, and night fireworks. seriously...

LOL

oh wells it was fucking hot on sat that my face, reddened like a lobster. i never knew i could get red, normally i'd just tan but this time, my entire forehead to cheek was read. free blusher. =) the place looks damn nice honestly. picts below.

i rotted at home while the bf enjoyed himself at bintan fishing and watching sunset from his kelong. -.- watched bleach which ok i admit initially i thought was rubbish but after kana force by him to watch i found it addictive.

i can't bloody believe man u lost to man c. rubbish to the max. hope l'pool loses. =p boring match

lalala. dinner on the 19th grls? =)) we shall discuss the exciting event coming up =))

2008-02-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL'S OVER/OUT/FINISHED!!
HAHAHAHAHA
I AM SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY
last paper just now and I couldn't wait to get out of the sports hall aka examination hall

no more classes no more exams no more tutorials and lectures!! yay!!!

tep starts on apr 14th! hahahaaha

look at how we've all changed or remain the same since year 1

we'll all be split up during attachment and not so close during tep

went out with the bf just now
he's gg to bintan for 3 days
i think i'm getting too dependant on him.
on him talking to me, msging me
hahaha
okok i know 3 days only... still...
hehehe. shall miss you babe

anyways yeah we went to occ and bowled coz i havent bowled for so long and he's never bowled
so cuuuuute *rolls eyes*
we spent like 15 mins in front of my mom's locker trying to open it and borrow her bowling ball
i never ever know how to open lockers
i suck at it
anyways, well he beat me at the second game
beginners luck pfft
shall challenge you again when im in form =p dont care
shall beat you!! =p unfair lo
i dunno how to play pool and you know. -.-

okie i alr have the next few days planned
watch anime, read my golden compass, wake up late, watch tv, go out with the girls
plan what to do for birthday
haahahahahaa
*hint hint* *nudge nudge*

2008-02-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

imc is over and it feels like exams are over coz of the weekends
but of course
ITS NOT!!!
still left with stupid pr and stupidops mgmt!
its good that all these modules have same topics such as crisis mgmt and what nonsense
but it is damn fcuking annoying coz every crisis mgmt tells u a different thing
wtf!
can't they have like the same thing! its media for heaven's carrot juice sake!
why can't they just have the same theories, same steps and same thing so i won get confused.

STUPID DAWSON! ok damn no link coz i'm watching man u-spurs
COME ON MANU!!! u can do it!!!
even my cat chomel is watching soccer
well she's just watching the ball roll here and there on screen and getting super amazed at it
hahahahha
so cuuuuuuute!
she always accompanies me and watches soccer
and when the ball isn't on screne she looks at the players, running around like bugs on the tv
hahahaha

anyway did i just say carrot juice sake??
my house has sudd gone organic.
mom just bought like two cartons of carrot juice
the fridge is filled with fruits and fruit juice
-.-

WHAT THE TWISTIES FISH CAKE!!!!
SCORE LA STUPID!!!
and WTH! RONALDO SHAPES HIS EYEBROWS!!! OMFG.
eeewww hahaha
okokok man u CANNOT LOSE! I BETTED WITH THE BF! HELLO!!!
he thinks manu will forever draw or lose
-.-
curse liverpool loses or draws later. -.-
oops
hehehe kidding!

finally met the silly best friend yesterday
and we slacked
at all places. MCDONALDS!
-.- northpoint is soooo boring..

anyways
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ermm ahem ahem the syalam???
what's with same coloured topswith bottoms inc fcuking shoes and accessories???
i just saw like two ermmm shanim wearing:
red top and red jeans with red bag
pink top with pink jeans and pink slippers -____________-

AND!!! THE WINNER FOR TODAY!!! 3 mats impersonating alvin and the chipmunks
1st: blue top, blue shoes, blue trucker cap with "SIMON" sprayed on it
2nd: red top, red shoes, red trucker cap with "ALVIN"
3rd: green top, green shoes, green trucker cap with "THEODORE" (surprisingly he's the shortest and plumest too)

HELLO!?! HALLOWEEN'S OVER! the only quanty error was tt "simon" wasn't in glasses but "alvin" and "theodore" were. -____-
the forever sarcastic bf was sayin maybe simmon decided to wear contacts today -.-

ok long entry but i thought it was woth blogging

and manu still hasnt scored but scored the most yellow cards. -________- hello??? wth is wrong with the refree?? football channel sucks ah wth! sudd got green and black bar across the screen. colour prob. -.- ESPN!!! yes ronaldo free kick! SCORE PLLLLSSSSSS

WTH!!! ARGGGHHHH!!!! bish!! *HITS TV*
i shall wallow in self pity

2008-01-28T13:43:00.000+08:00

ok im suppose to be studying but my cat is sleeping on my book and i don have the heart to wake him up. instead im reading blogs and found this entry by shahida-zaf's friend
well of course it's too much to expect from any guy, the bf is no exception, even though he makes me happy and i'm the luckiest girl on earth to have him (i bet almost every attached grl would argue with me on that) but its nice to wonder

When she walks away from you mad [Follow her ]
When she stare's at your mouth [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you [ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she start's cussing at you [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet [ Ask her what’s wrong ]
When she ignores you [ Give her your attention ]
When she pulls away [ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared [ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hat [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ]
When she says that she likes you [ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grabs at your hands [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes [ don’t look away until she does ]
When she misses you [ she's hurting inside ] tt's why i miss u even when i just met u
When you break her heart [ the pain never really goes away ] tt's why women hold grudges
When she says its over [ she still wants you to be hers ] tt's why women say things they don mean in anger
When she repost this bulletin [ she wants you to read it ] -
Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything. -
When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go -
When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her - because 10 yrs later she'll remember you -

Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her -
Call her before you sleep and after you wake up -
Treat her like she's all that matters to you. -
Tease her and let her tease you back. -
Stay up all night with her when she's sick. -
Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid. -
Give her the world. -
Let her wear your clothes. -
When she's bored and sad, hang out with her. -
Let her know she's important. -
Kiss her in the pouring rain. -
When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

what if you're the one she's crying about, "kick your own ass"

when i'm feeling sad at home, i wear ur jacket and hug myself
when i'm feeling scared, you let me hold on and grab ur shirt

when i'm walking home alone, you'd accompany me on the phone

when i miss you, you'd go out to meet me or surprise me
when i lost my cat, you helped me look for it
when i was being bullied by the ex, you let me cry on your shoulders
when i pull away, you'd just link our hands again

when i cry on your shoulders, you'd tickle me, pout and make me smile
even when i don't say, you can always tell when something's wrong
thank you bf for making me so happy even though i don think i've ever made you happy
why can't we just be happy and not argue?
"Hate That I Love You"(feat. Ne-Yo)

[Rihanna:]

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can't stand you

Must everything you do make me wanna smile

Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]

But you won't let meY

ou upset me girl

And then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)

Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]

But I hate it...

You know exactly what to do

So that I can't stay mad at you

For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]

But I hate it...

You know exactly how to touch

So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more

Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)

I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)

And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]

You completely know the power that you have

The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]

Said it's not fair

How you take advantage of the fact

That I... love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]

And I hate how much I love you girl

I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can't let you go

But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

stupid emo song that keeps replaying inside my head. =)

2008-01-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

YAY YAY YAY!!!
SCHOOL'S OUT! =D=D=D=D=D
NO MORE LESSONS!
NO MORE PRESENTATIONS!
NO MORE EXAMS!! in a week's time. =p

it didnt occur to me til the end of IP presentation tt shcool's over
last presentation of the year turned out alright i guess

ive started work.
at kumon in tpy. did i mention tt before?
worked for 3 days alr
its nice
my boss is nice
the kids there are devils in disguise =) cute devils though
and my colleagues are ok i guess

happy monthsary
we saw 2 pathetic swans at a swan lake
saw spiders and chipmunks and tortoise

i don like arguing with you

pathetic attempts at multi shots. i look fugly btw

this reminds me of those booth pictures

yay! camwhoring kings n queens
and of course a day out won b a day out until smtg weird happens
like finding a piece of string n tying to your sandals
and getting new pairs
=D

i wanna start on golden compass
its calling me frm my table
saying,
"read me read me read me, iffah"

i don have the mood to study
i just want to enjoy already
i don want to study
i hate studying
tts why i didnt go to jc!
=((

i want a camera!!!
=(
oh wells now i can look forward to my paycheck =)

a day for apologies.

2008-01-18T05:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday will always be there
That day will always hang around our heads
if not yours, then just mine
maybe today wont be like this if it wasn't for yesterdays

I'm sorry I misunderstood you
Sorry we're both to stubborn to do anything
Sorry that there are people who just want to add salt to the wound
sorry i have friends who just want to stir trouble i dislike ppl exaggerating abt me and saying things that aren't true
sorry i doubted you
sorry i embarrassed you
sorry i hurt anyone
sorry i let pride get in the way of making things better sooner
sorry I'm causing you trouble

i'm sorry to you too sara for taking it out on you
forgive me for being so stupid

i couldn't stop it when the rain fell and accompanied me
i couldn't stop it when people were surrounding me
nor can i stop it now with the quietness around me
i just cant take it anymore that's why im blogging
dont think that im letting the whole world see
i just don feel like turning to other ppl for comfort
somehow i don think i can put them out of my mind
sorry that i'm like that

2008-01-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

I AM DONE WITH IMC!!
YES AH!!!
WOOOHOOO
2 DAYS OF SLEEPLESS NIGHTS ARE TAKING THEIR TOLL ON ME
OK SO I HAD A FEW CATNAPS HERE N THERE BUT OVERALL I DIDN'T SLEEP

I'm sorry Charlene, Ila, Iqah and Matt if I threw my temper at you. IMC SUCKS! sorry..
I'm SO SO SO tired!
and why am i stil in sch you ask? slacking with ppl who do last minute work =p

gg to nap
nights

2008-01-16T10:04:00.000+08:00

i actually wanted to blog about nice things
but when i opened up this post
i lost the motivation
because i need to do work
haiz

i so want holidays to come like now
i can't wait til the 5th of feb!

ADVERT
anyone free on the 22nd of Jan, Tueday between 1-3?
i need talents to help in my ICA multicam production
just to act as an interviewer and interviewees
pls? =((

oh see... icas have made me beg
another sleepover again today with ila, charlene and iqah for imc
sometimes you really wonder... does hard work pay off?
the last ica sucked

ep sucks
shall not elaborate
put too much faith in ppl and they disappoint you
well last ica for ep coming up
STUPID woman

still, the roller coaster is not nearly over
there're exams to study for
haaaaaiiiiiiiz
im sooooooooooo glad i not in JC

will blog happy stuff when the weekends come

baby where is this road taking us to?

2008-01-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

The holidays are coming! in 3 weeks! =)
can't wait for it...

anyone seen mamon?
i lost my mamon!! =(
it dropped off my phone coz the claps broke!
depresseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!
MAMOOOOOOON!!!!!!

nvm the bf bought me a new mamon to replace it..
a big fat rosy cheeked MAMON! =D
but i still want my hp mamon!!! =((
maybe only IMM has it... =(

ate korean food at this korean restaurant the other day
had bimibap and korean tea which tasted like black coffee!

well ok la... noooot bad.
the bf ate beef la mian coz he was having stomach probs frm rotten siu mai. =p
look! it looks sooo nice like those u take picts of for menus! hahaha

and this is what it looks like mixed. so fugly...

had nyp open house frm thurs til sat.
tiring basically
this year i didnt perform with FB
coz i haven been attending
performed for MS open house booth with fong, shaf and two other MS Y1s

i know i havent been attending
don care if you believe me or not
i've been slumped, bombarded, crashed with projects, deadlines, prototypes
i haven been sleeping OR sleeping well
i keep waking up every few hours coz of projects
i can't stay awake some nights and i'll end up waking up again and again coz i keep thinking i have to rush deadlines

1am- sleep
2a- wakes up, haiz... project... do abit and falls asleep
3am-
WOKE UP OMG shit i need to do proj... falls back asleep after awhile
5am- wake up AGAIN shit! DIE! PROJ! falls back asleep after awhile
7am- DIE! GOT SCHOOL!!! HAVEN FINISH WORK!!!

thus the no. of hours i sleep are equivalent to 1-2 hours. =)
best!
HOLIDAYS! FASTER COME!!!
have.... lets see...
after chong's ica done!
IMC first presentation done
STUPID EP report done
I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER DO NUMBERS AGAIN
NUMBERS SUCK
BALANCING BALANCE SHEET SUCKS
EP ICA 3 JUST FCUKING SUCKS
COZ PPL GO MIA AND DON BOTHER THINKING ABT SCH!

PR report & presentation
IMC report & presentation
IP presentation
EP presentation
IMC, PR, CHONG EXAMS!!!!!!!!!! on 1st-5th february!!

2008-01-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

as long as exams aren't done
this school year will continue being a nightmare for me
and my mommy will have to buy me dozens of packs of this

aiya i forgot to rotate it. nvm... -.-

my saviour
my lifeline
my knight and shining armour
what would i do without you
oh nescafe nescafe!
wherefor arthou nescafe!
i don care if the spelling's even correct
i haven read literature since i was in sec 2.

it's amazing what poly life has done to me
dark circles
eye bags
fluctuating weight

coz of lots and lots of daim chocolates
haagen daz mini tubs
and ben & jerry's
and calbee's hot & spicy
and the junk in my cupboard n fridge. -.-

does anyone wanna buy my pink psp slim?
so i can buy this?
http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/New-PSP-Slim-Lite-Deep-Red-Special-Offer-320_W0QQitemZ160195402007QQihZ006QQcategoryZ91514QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem#ebayphotohosting
chicken mcnugget why did they have to come up with a red one? stupid.
if they'd come up with a yellow one [oh wait they have, simpsons edition]
or a green one...
i wouldn't be this tempted. pfft

i'm suppose to do ep, pr
but im looking at psp games,
reading trent, ohnotheydidn't, psp game reviews, camera reviews coz i need a new one... -.-

i have a new bf.
he's so soft, cuddly, listens so very very well to me, doesn't argue, big brown eyes, pink cheeks,
cute butt
his name is mamon, the tortoise. =D

should i get this?

or this?

but i'm so tempted by this

and this

sony cybershot, casio exilim, canon powershot or ixus, panasonic lumix

i need a new camera..
anyone wanna get me one? =p
coz my stupid camera. is spoilt. and it cost $2fcuking hundred and 70 to repair it.
-.-
stupiiiiiiiiid

2008-01-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

i should start on my dramas and anime soon
bah!
did chong and johnny presentation yesterday
didn't sleep again the night before

this is going to become a habit. no sleeping thing. damn it. another johnny presentation up 2 weeks from now and entre presentation.

to hell with grp members who don hand in work
what's the use of saying you'll do it, can you hand in late, when you don't even send it in the end. fcuking rubbish can! i don care.
NOT gg to put in ur name in the report. fcuking bitch.
p.s: have you ever watched this show called slap her she's french?

I should watch korena dramas soon
I need a good laugh, romance story and a good cry all in one day

im feeling stressed
exams are around the corner.
i need cash!

2008-01-02T04:04:00.000+08:00

finished watching a shot at love with tila tequila
she is damn hot
and a bisexual
and i think the show has made me bi!
LOL

tila's asian! vietnamese born in singapore. cooooool

i luurrrve love love brandi!
she is sooo hot and sexy and damn cool! love love
hahahha

you should start watching
coz it will probably NEVER be aired in singapore.
the show has the most *beeeeeeps* i have ever heard in all my years watching tv
e.g.:
you *beep* *beep* you can just go *beep* yourself you *beep* *beep* *beep* *beep*
LOL
damn hilarious and addictive than any other reality show
ok besides the amount of cursing singapore probably has to sensor
it also has some intimate scenes of tila kissing other women
and there're lesbians and butches

the lesbians dman freaking don look like lesbians pls
maybe that's why thye're lipstick lesbians

2008-01-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
HAPPY 2008!

to all my friends and loved ones
thank you so much for sticking to me through thick and thin
i appreciate all of you...

2007 has been full of happiness, sadness, anger, craziness, love, hate, stressfull, easy, hard
overall, a balanced year! =p

lost my dear becky.
my pampered, loving, always looking for me, cat.
in memory of you.
i shall always love and remember you.

lost another cat, my fat, tiger, patches
i hated losing you thanks to him.
but i wish you were here for me to hug and cuddle

stopped going for fb for a long while
fell in and out of what i thought was love with a friend... ;)

had some difficult family times but we're managing. =)

but the year isnt filled with just sadness

celebrated my 18th! finally can watch m18[not so big fcuk]
can drink, smoke, get married...[kidding mom! seriously!]

passed my driving theory tests!
finally got a gpa of 3 for my first sem!
got a new phone which i love love
hung out with my friends and i believe i know them better
and i know who my real friends are...
got a new lappy!
visited all the attractions in sentosa!

and finally gave a shot at love... =)
i'm glad i'll be seeing the new year with you beside me...

my new year resolutions
1) learn to give in more since im such a stubborn person who usually doesnt gv in and i know the ppl i love have been giving in alot to me.

2) really concentrate and put my best effort for sch and tep and whatever so i get good grades

3) get a job

4) start praying coz i know it's good for me. =p

5) be nicer and less tempremental so my baby bf doesn't have a hard time... LOL

6) cherish those around me more coz you never know when they'll leave you

7) spend more time with my family, friends

8) go on a decent holiday with my FRIENDS!!!

9) be nicer to people who don like me

baby i know it's been hard
the road has been bumpy
but i know it's full of light
and i'll stand by you always
let's start the year anew...
love love

STUPIDITY

2007-12-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

URGHHH!!! someone feed me to the piranhas/tigers/crocodiles/sharks
WHATEVER!!!
I HATE MARCOM!!!
=((
i think i've been doing the prototype for like 3 days alr!
argh! gg crazy! =((
stupid projects
stupid marcom
stupid pr
stupid production management
stupid multicam
stupid entrepreneurship

stupid group members who don't give me their stupid work on stupid time and make me stupidly wait and stupidly do for them while they stupidly spend their holidays in stupid happiness!
RAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!!

the only thing i have to look forward to today is meeting the best friend
whom i havent seen in like a month
haiz stress reliever
i am so going to cam whore and not care about anything else later today
im taking a longer break because i dont want to see brandon, nigel or roderick's faces anymore.
i've been staring at their faces since yesterday!
coz of stupid marcom

and when stupid lessons start, stupid tests will start and i'll have to study for stupid exams so i can proceed to stupid TEP/ATTACHMENT.

dont mind the stupids im just venting out my anger and stress and whatever else

i am on the verge of stupidly breaking down again... annoooyyyiiiing!
fadila.. cheer me up later pls!

2007-12-28T05:07:00.000+08:00

it sucks when someone feels guilty for being with you. fuck it all.
i'm sorry for not having been there for you
i can't give any excuses for it
just an apology [which sucks]

i promise i'll msg you more often
call you more often
meet you more often [even if you're lazy and rather watch love actually]
and be there for you when you need me

just to let you know you mean a great deal to me
and even though we may not meet each other so often
i still think of you [sometimes dream of you] ;)

i missed you =(
and i realise we don't have alot of pictures together since my comp crashed!
SEE YOU SUNDAY!

ZOOLICIOUS

2007-12-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

yay! i finally visited the zoo!
thank you for taking me there
even though we didnt get enough sleep and went there at 830 when it opened
i loved every minute of it
even though i got bitten by stupid mosquitoes =))

oh so the day started with breakfast at McD
then we headed off to the zoo
and the first animals we saw, were monkeys..
i think singapore zoo loves monkeys
monkeys were everywhere

i don't know why you took so many pictures of babboons
they're so disgusting with their red asses
especially males and females in heat, they're asses become redder and BIGGER to let other males and females know. -________- did you know that?
and it was damn disgusting
looked like baked brains that got squashed into their asses. -.-

ok enough about babboons...
yest was also inuka the polar bear's bday...
he was sooo big and furry and DAMN cute
i love polar bears
they had this big ice cake with carrots and whipped cream
there were two, one for each polar bear inuka and sheba.
and the big bday bullied the small sheba and ate all his whipped cream. LOL
poor sheeba

anyways... I LOVE CATS
white tigers, leopards, lions, jaguars and cheetahs!
they're so lazy
most of them were sleeping
the only big cats i saw awake were the white lions.
big fat lazy cats
just like mine at home
sleep all day, lazing around. LOL.

anyways the most cutest thing we saw, were of course PENGUINS!
they're dman damn cute , waddling around with their black tuxedos!
and swmming around and just standing there stoning or smtg. HAHAHA
we caught the animal show and they're just damn cute, hungry creatures... LOL

the next star we saw was pablo, the sea lion.
smart and mischevious and another glutton always asking for food. LOL
DAAAAAAAAAMN CUTE!

wanted to take the horse carriage but we were too late
damn it. another time. =))

i think we took more animal pictures than our picts LOL
finaly a picture of me

watched national treasure aft tt
i think i was damn tired i thought i'd fall asleep when it started.
but i didnt. and it was super super nice. =D love!

ok finally ate my own[not bought by other ppl] donut factories..
k baby bought for me la hahaha
we didnt queue we ate at novena square
k the pict only has 4 coz i forgot to take when there was still ermm alot. LOL
thank you! =)
second pict looks like big boobs! =))

ok i spoilt the day a lil coz its the stupid time of mth again and i felt moody and irritated at the end but thank you for putting up with it and making me laugh when i broke down. =))
love you lots.
xoxo sometimes i wish that time would stand still sometimes i wish that things were diff we always wish for the impossible only time will tell

2007-12-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

As days past,
a month has gone by
thank you so much
for understanding me so well
time passes by so fast when you're having fun
for making me believe in love again
for making me able to trust again
i never thought anyone like you exists
where i can just really be myself

thank you for putting up with my tantrums, for being there and lending a shoulder, for picking me up when i fall, for giving in to me most of the time, for loving me so much

the little things that you do makes me fall even more with you, cheering me up when i'm sad, surprising me when im missing you, accompanying me through the night when i'm doing work and your concern for my happiness

your smile lights up my day, your pout puts a smile on my face and i can never be mad at you for too long.

happy monthsary baby.
love you
xoxo
see you soon

2007-12-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

had sentosa orientation on saturday

was really uber fun

went to all the sentosa owned attractions. FOR FREE!!!

carlsberg sky tower, merlion, fort siloso, images of singapore and watched songs of the sea! =))

view from merlion of sky tower

inside the lion's teeth

inside the sky tower

fort siloso

songs of the sea!!! beautiful pictureswell spent a looong night!
had sleepover with ila and charlene over
we had a perffect night together!
lol! k sounds wrong....
k i was the last to wke up... -.-

Stay Close Don't Go

2007-12-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

I'm starring at the glass
In front of me
Is it half empty
If I ruined everything
You've given me
I know I've been selfish
I know I've been foolish
But look through that
And you will see
That I'll do better I know,
Baby I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Sometimes I stare at you
While you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I Somehow
Managed to
Sweep you off of your feet girl
Your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted
What you do
But I can do better
I know, baby I can do better

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

Don't you know
My heart is pumping hope
It's putting out the fight
I got this feeling
That everything’s alright
Don't you see
I'm not the only one for you
But your the only one for me

If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone
Will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight

This song keeps replaying iside my head suddenly
i just felt better
Then i saw smtg that just made me feel worse again
haiz
ok i shouldn't be so sensitive
you suck for turning me into this

HOROSCARY!!!

2007-12-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

just saw this website which describes aries woman
usually i don believe coz basically what i read doesn't describe me at all!
but this one REALLY DOES!!!!!!! COOOOOOOLNESS!!!!
hahahaa

http://www.iloveindia.com/astrology/sun-signs/aries/woman.html

go see whether what they say abt u is true....

Romance is something that no Aries can live without and the same goes for an Aries woman also. However, for her, not getting on without romance is not same as not being able to live without a man. In her heart, she will always be yearning for that someone special, thinking about him in the monsoon and that will be her idea of romance. She doesn't need a real man for it. Aries female is the one who will do anything and everything herself, without needing any male help. One of her basic personality traits is total confidence in her abilities.

Don't dominate an Aries female and don't let her dominate you. Either of the extremes, she will not be able to tolerate. Give her reasons to be proud of you, but do not forget to praise her for her talent too. Her expectations are too high, but she will also give you double in return.

oopsss see? i have too high expectations. i know that... =s

She is very possessive and love is something she can never share. She can be very jealous even at the slightest of suspicion. In case you have a female secretary, it is better to bid her good bye right now. If an Aries girl gets hurt, she will become as cold as the ice in your fridge and this behavior may last an entire lifetime. She is generous to the faults of her loved ones and it is better not to criticize them in front of her. On the other hand, if you are good to her, she will be extremely kind, tender, loyal and supportive.

You will get plenty of reasons to be jealous when you are with an Aries female, since she is more comfortable with men than women. However, don't be suspicious of her, she would be really hurt. She is possessive, but she doesn't like to be possessed. She wants her freedom and your complete trust. Remember, if she's committed to you, you have no reasons to doubt her loyalty and sincerity. An Aries woman is much too truthful to be involved with two people at the same time. She will first break up the relationship that is not working.

ooops ok i knooow i easily get jealous and i don like to share ermmm my love hahaha
and ok fine i have a bad temper =p
but im generous!
see i lend ppl my stuff! =D

For her love means sharing and that means sharing everything, right from her emotions and checkbook to your bank account. Always respect an Aries woman and never try to dampen her zeal, or she will be hurt. Though she tries to show that she is very strong, she is as innocent and as vulnerable as a baby. Be there to comfort her when she runs up to you after being disappointed with the world. If you stand up to her when she comes to you like this, you will never ever lose her. An Aries female will never forgive you if you fail to fight for her.

hmmm...
hey! haha i don use up ppl's money looo.... LOL
i know i can depend on certain ppl to run to and cry if i need to.. =))
and to those who've i've cried on before coz im an emotional shit person...
THANK YOU!!!
you shoud feel honoured. i don run to cry on ppl often..
only those i cherish... =))

2007-12-15T01:24:00.000+08:00

this is the first time ive seen this view in yishun
didn't know such places with such views existed
it was a nice bright starry sky night
thank you for it =)
let's go star gazing one day

holidays are here!
2 weeks break
but onslaugt of projects will kill me
5 freaking projects due when sch reopens
plus one written multicam theory test
omg!!!!!!!
DIE!!!!!!!!!!!
=(

jingle bells jingle bells
so irritating
christmas is coming, i love christmas decos....
SO BRIGHT AND CHEER-IE and NICE!!!!
thank you so much for a wonderful day=))

even though tmr's not christmas and i was a good grl this year,
i was visited from 3 ghosts/angels
the ghost of christmas past

the ghost of christmas present

the ghost of christmas yet to be

i was enlightened and blah blah blah
hehe
you've shown me that my past doesn't matter
what matters is just the present, you and all those around me
and even though the future is blur, with you around, i know i'll always be laughing and smiling

2007-12-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

i am so so so sorry fadila i couldn't make it yesterday
was really having food poisoning/diarrhoea yesterday
must be the noodles i ate at banquet the night before
i'm sooo soo sorry
i'll make it up to you.
PROMISE!!!!!

hold your head up high
and don't let what others think and say affect you so much
that's what i learnt
nvm
year ending in 2-3 more months
then attachment
freedom. =)

i miss sec sch
where everyone gets along relatively well with everyone
but oh well
life isn't all bright and cheerful
i use to be very trusting
until certain events happ
then i turned cynical
but only time will tell if the friends we have now will stick together after graduation
or will we drift apart

i need a job
badly
i wanna go on holiday with my friends
need to save money!!!
need to apply for practical lessons
damn it!

i'm sorry if i seem to ask for too much sometimes, but i love you honey nonetheless and though it may seem abit rocky now, i'll hold your hand like you've held mine and walk with you down this path because im falling more for you each day... xoxo

purple snow
see-saw love

2007-12-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

bumpy roads
heavy rain

i feel cranky
im getting more cranky
i don know why
nothing seems right
i have enough sleep
i laugh
but i still feel like crying everytime im alone

am i suffering from depression or something?

i'm sorry for all the unhappines i seem to be causing
i don't know why
but i want things to get better

saraaaa i want pictureees

i have blackmail material of you
so treat me nicely

look how different almost everyone was in year 1 compared to now
some gained, others lost, some remained the same

2007-11-30T14:12:00.000+08:00

pls stop reminding me of what we did
what we had
no doubt, again, i made some stupid mistakes [i always do]
and now i regret it hearing it repeated by you
my friends were right
all u wanted was that
what u offered, proved that
i must've been in the wrong state of mind
all i can offer, is an apology, for doing this to you again
and i am not like her
you know that better
emotional blackmail won work with me this time around
if u regret leaving her, it just proves that u wanted me to replace her
go back then i'm sure she'd appreciate it

i don understand why such a small thing, must turn into such a huge deal
why must someone be so petty over a small matter
i've apologized, maybe it didnt matter at that moment
but i wont chase, i wont grovel, i wont beg again
because everytime u're like this, i give in.
why the hell must i always be the one to ask what's wrong?
ok enough about depressing matters
and friends who dont know how to believe in you

the first free friday til sunday i'll have
what do i do?
hahaha
shall continue my anime and drama watching again

i know i didn't make the wrong decision
pls dont break my heart

2007-11-28T23:51:00.001+08:00

Unexpected surprises
childhood memories, released
a smile which i could not contained formed
as my happiness evolved
i couldn't help but giggle like a child
thank you for the greatest gift ever. =)

2007-11-28T10:09:00.000+08:00

This is going to be an uber looooong entry

Melaka/Melacca trip
The first time i felt so peaceful, so serene that I could hear birds chirping around me when i wake up like literally.

I think this is the first time I stayed over in a kampong. I’ve been to kampongs, stayed over for a day but never slept overnight before. I didn’t stay in an old wooden kampong, but a normal Singapore, looking terrace made of stone. The house was circled by a garden that had mango trees and rambutan trees.

The only irritating thing was the mosquitoes. I’m afraid that every time it bit me, I’d get dengue or aids or something. LOL. Ok that was mean but yeah. And of course no kampong would be a kampong without lizards. Omfg i think i’ve been cured of my lizard phobia being and hearing the lizards every hour once at least. Unless im in the car or shopping centre.
I’m typing this blog entry on my lappy MSWORD since there’s no internet. Sitting on the veranda and in front, beside me are all the neighbours.

The town is a small one in Melaka, Durian Tunggal (Lone Durian), where everyone knows everybody. It’s still a nice place with air conditioning and hot water. LOL. And I adapted quite well to this environment.

It was a 2.5 hour journey from second link. No jam because well, its second link. As night fell, I looked at the sunset as the car drove past fields, coconut and rubber plantations. When the moon rose and the sun finally set and the sky was blanketed with stars, the road became super dark at some areas coz there wasn’t any road lights. I slept for about half an hour and when i awoke, the road infront of me was dark, even darker then driving under the tunnel.

I ate the best ever nasi lemak for breakfast. Hahaha. Yup nasi lemak.

Went to this kenduri (some sorta family gathering) yesterday. Kampong ppl are so kpo and they like to stare i realise. Ok of course i didn’t know that i’d be going to tat kenduri so i was of course in jeans. -.- but still, well... there was this one makcik who really pissed me off saying my magnet bracelet was fake. Nuuuuuget. -.- so annoying. So what if you payed RM$300+?? Bleahx

And for dinner yesterday i had the 2nd best fried kway teow ever. First still goes to Lestari at Yishun. =)) My favourite local dish is fried kway teow and nasi lemak have i ever told you? And if tom yam weren’t a thai dish it’ll be my top most favourite. LOL.
Slept early coz there’s basically nothing to do and watch here since im not 5 yrs old i can’t play the toys that ain has. -.-

And the final day, travelled ALL the way to segamat which took almost 2 hours of driving!!! to eat satay
but i have to admit, the best satay i ever ate. I ate 14 sticks of beef and chicken satay ALLL BY MYSELF! haha fattening

*caution do not read if feel squirmish*
The owner of the satay place was again one of my mom's friend's relatives.
They have this cute cat which was given to them by someone who found it
His rear left feet had been purposely chopped off
when i saw him, i wanted to cry and beat the shit out of the person who'd done it
how can anyone be so fucking evil!!!
CURSES UPON THAT PERSON!
the cut was clean as i saw the bone.. straight cut. =s
my mom was alr in tears
i thought of my cats at home then and how lucky they were
you know why his legs got chopped?
he was stealing food. FOOD! can u imagine?!?
every living thing has the right to live!
=(
here's a picture of the sad little(now happy) cat

and thank you so very much for accompanying me when i was there
if not for you, i'd have died of boredom. =) love love

once i got back home, sleepless nights welcomed me. -.-
projects due...
slept a total of only like 3 hours max from sun-monday. hahaha
reached home and die on my bed. LOL

a new pathway has just begun
and as i begin to walk on the path, full of possibilities, happiness and probably sadness,
i know i've made the right decision in stepping on that first brick on the road
because i wont be walking on it alone

2007-11-23T14:28:00.000+08:00

heylo...
been awhile since i updated.

well, i got my wish
i'll be going overseas after like so loong
to melacca
for 3 days..
by car..
oh well we cant always have what we wish to fly in an aeroplane. =)

hahaha
i need a job
then i can save up for our thailand or wherever trip next year
right? ;) hehehe

the thing is,
i feel guilty to go and take off for a holiday
when there's sooo much work to be done.
that's why i'll be bringing lappy there to do work.
not that there's an internet connection there
but i'll be doing ep and ip i guess
siaaaaan

leaving soon at 4..
don miss me too much ppl.. [if you don't miss me i'l be sad though]

in case anything happens to me [touch wood]
ila, charlene, iqah, sara, cin, matt, eoin, leo, kel, bez
love u ppl even though i always bully u sometimes.. ;)

ttfn!!
leave you with these pictures!
the lucky bugger! we should steal from him(the rich) and donate to the poor. (us)s not for superman. guess wat?

sara's photooshop lesson 1! there is another lesson picture but shan't upload it in case i offend someone. ;))

2007-11-18T02:43:00.000+08:00

This is by far, the first project-free weekend that i've had since school started. lol.
seriously, a massive workload has been piling up and now i cant see my desk apart from my laptop and dressing table

im in love with ralph lauren hot and body shop vanilla spice!!
can bathe and drink and sleep in them the whole day. hahahaha

niwaes, my weekend isnt entirely free i have to study for ftt actually which is this coming tuesday
shit

i need a job! anyone got lobang??
job job job..
money money money
im finally gg overseas the following weekend
but
to melacca
coz its my mom's thanksgiving holiday so she wants to go melacca
-.-
oh well better than nothing
haiz...

oh i got myself a new lappy! hurray
jealous?
don need la... acer one again. haah
mommy won it in a lucky draw during her sch's computer course.
yay!
the only sucky part is that it uses integrated graphics card
and im still trying to adapt to vista... haha
using it now actually. nyiahahaha

its 3am now and im still awake..
bored...

went back to sch on fri to hand in report at 9am.. so early
i don have sch on fri..
then went to leo's house to play texas holdem(i dunno how to spell anyhow one)
and we all had a great laugh til we cried and had cheek and stomac cramps at ila...
hey kelvin now we have a new name for you!!
tong tong!! hahahahahha damn funny
well to all of us there it was anyways...

i shall go and nuah now...

2007-11-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

evesdroppers never hear anything good about themselves
my day just got from bad to worst

mom wanted me to accompany her to weddings but i was too tired from projects to go and i really am sick mom
spent 2 days finishing up PR report and finally its done. yay
i wanna put exclamation mark but my silly cat is sleeping on my laptop SO NOW I CANT TYPE ANYTHING OVER A. AND NOW HE SLEPT ON THE CAPS SO NOW IM BLOGGING IN CAPS... -.-

WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS THINK THAT THEY OWN A BRAND?

pause my cat changed position so now i can type normally..

wtheck must u be a surfer or a beach person to use volcom? no. i have a friend who loves the brand
must you be a sports person or a hip-hop fan to use adidas sports gear and "respect me"? no. i have friends who don even run or do sports and they carry adidas

so what is the deal? i know i shouldn't care because heck i know im not a poser
something cathes my eye, and i buy it.

memories of the past keep returning coz of current events
pls don let me be disappointed again
i know i have no right to be
and i know i shouldnt be
but i don want to regret again
u're not the only one who's not emotionally stable at the moment
im not as well
i haven had a decent sleep havent had a non-tearful day since u came back into my life

but maybe we're not fated to be together
maybe u're missing me for reasons that arent right
and maybe im missing u for the wrong reasons as well
but why cant we go one day without arguing?
why can u give someone else so much of urself but never to me?
why am i expecting so much of something i know wont turn out good?
i need to know where this will lead before i take the next step forward or back
im sorry for pressuring you but i have the right to be
you hurt me so much more than u know
and i don want to hurt anymore

someone please pull me back onto my feet.
lend me your shoulders to cry on again
and engulf me in a big hug and assure me that things will be alright

2007-11-09T14:01:00.001+08:00

i feel myself falling all over again

falling head down a hill

and i'm aware of it

i know i have people who love me

and i feel really grateful for all their support and love

thank you charlene, habez, ila, matt for being there for me..

yesterday was jalan raya day and abnn day

abnn day also can go jln raya. final day to jln raya

so weird.

azhar drove us in a hired van

u suck at driving.

lol. kidding.

well, here're the pictures...

so many things have happened...

so many things running through my mind

how can you still affect me after all this time i dont know

maybe i'm not over you as i thought i was

and maybe i'm not as immune to you like i thought i was

and maybe i havent fully let u go yet

and maybe i still love you

emotional turmoil.

whatever i felt yesterday was all real

and i still can't believe i felt that way

and wanted what i wanted...

i don't want to regret again

i don't want to feel pain again

i don't want my heart to be broken again because of empty promises

i'm sorry for the times i've hurt you

and sorry for all the times i shed those tears

i don't know what's on your mind

i don't want to be a replacement for someone else

finally, we had our long talk and cleared everything between us

and im glad that i've said what i wanted to for a very long time...

don't know what will happen now..

wait and see how it'll go

maybe it's just a phase

maybe it will pass

but i do know one thing

im gg to have to apologize to someone

and i went to the national museum two days ago

damn fun

thought it would be damn boring though

lol

and cam whored damn alot..

this is the picture i like best

hehehehe like movie poster

2007-11-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

i watched a basketball match today courtesy of my mom's friend who gave my mom free tickets... =D thank you. one of the best days of my life..

Singapore Slingers vs Perth Wildcats.
We won 112-105! =D
they havent won in awhile so i guess im their good luck charm.

anyone for a game this weekend?? slingers vs adelaide 36ers..
we had front row seats just now so i got an uber good look at the wildcats since the seats were behind their bench.
well not diretly behind, those are reserved for the sponsors, vips and what have you.
$17 but we got em for free..
thanks! =D

This is Tom Garlepp wildcat player. he reminds me of Clark Kent! hahaha but uber cute.. and uber TALL!!!!! 203cm can!!!!!!!!!!!!
Their tallest player stands at 213cm!!!!! monster!

FINAL SCORE!!!!! after extra time! 112-105

McDonald scoring! GO SLINGERS!

This are the perth wildcats.
Couldn't believe i had fun coz i never watch basketball unless u count slam dunk the anime. LOL. well.... i did. =D
and after the game got the autographs of some of the slingers as well as pictures
i felt DAMN SHORT!!!!!!!!!
the tallest guy is like 208cm!!!!
aaaaaaaand.. this is him...
DAVID DONALDSON

well duh i felt short next to him and almost all his team members... I'm only like reaching his chest can!!!!!!!

ben knight... see his hands are around my shoulders! =D

john fitzgerald

and this hottie at 182cm.. still taller than you leonard!!! SHANE McDONALD!! isn't he just droool worthy!?! hahahaha damn hot and cute pls...

this is the team's top shooter
rod grizzard. suits him coz he reminds me of a grizzly bear...

oh well.. time to do work now.. =))
had my share of fun...

at one point peter crawford from perth stripped coz his jersey was too sweaty and had blood. damn it damn hot. you could hear the crowd whistling la! hahaha and i of course was like WAH!!! but i took too long to take out my camera so there's no pict. TOO BAD!!!!

and there was this group of guys who had a banner with "CALL 812......." LOL can't remember the number. *shrugs* hahahaha
saw some of my students from SAS. who would've thought.

2007-11-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

halloween candy gets you sick

well eating too much of it does anyways

i decided to be greedy and indulge on my sweet tooth

since i havent ate anything sweet for a loong time

it was pure sweet tempting torture to be eating all these by myself

no of course i didn't finish it

purely coz i had a stomach ache by the time i finished my first bag of candies

if you're nice to me i'll share.. =D

There could have been no two hearts so opened, no taste so similar, no feelings so in unison

Jane Austen's words in Persuasion.
Have you ever read it?
If you haven't I recommend you do
Jane Austen might have some chim and complex writing skills
but it makes a wonderful read
a classic

i woke up at farking 730 today and lesson was at 8am
FABULOUS
stayed up til 530am to do work and this is what i get
and because i rushed to bathe and get ready and booked a cab which caused me $14 coz of booking fee and morning sur-charge,
i got a freaking migraine. expected
always have stupid headaches when i rush aft waking up.
pfffft
and i looked fugly today coz i wore glasses to cover up my uber huge eyebags

and i farking failed my FTT!
STUPID SHITNESS!
RAAAAAAAAAR!!
spent like $11 to renew and register again for ftt
which is on farking january 16 2008!!!!!
wtf!!!!

today is a lousy day
it was soooo freaking hot that i perspired in the rain
in the freaking rain can u believe it??

oh well with the bad comes the good
saw the two eye-candies in sch but of course i was looking fugly so i decided to like shy away
hahahaha
and i got to watch my the lake house dvd
and of course....

i feel sucky first time for ip felt like nvr do anything
no first time for any proj i felt so useless...
it sucks...
worried abt peer evaluation...

2007-11-01T00:23:00.000+08:00

even though there's just TONS and MILLIONS of work to be done
allow me this entry
then i shall study for ftt and do sch work

I've learnt alot of things tonight
I've learnt to trust my friends more
and i realised i need to learn to trust them more
and i love all you guys even though it sounds sappy
but thank you for being there for me
and i appreciate it much more than i can say
for being honest and true

forgs are disgusting
but its time
for the frog to hop onto another lilypad
before the frog sinks it and drowns itself along with it
sorry for almost sinking you

its been awhile since i talked to my mom
but i did a few nights back
a loooooooooong talk
and poured my heart out

gg study for my ftt now
then gg do some work...

2007-10-27T17:04:00.000+08:00

first off
let me apologize for my moodiness and behaviour for the past few days
as well as for the days to come..

brush my hair
hold my hand
take me into your arms
and hold me tight
a feather on my cheek
as well as the wetness on it
warmth in my heart
as well as the ache
light in my eyes
as well as the shimmer
butterflies in my stomach
curling up my toes
smile on my face
as well as a frown

randomness of it wont make sense to anyone

the little little things just seem to add up

p/s: i'm scared. and i dont want to regret again. i'll spend more time with you i promise.

the onslaught of fasting month and raya has been reminding me that i should cherish those around me more.
the family finally took a family portrait together but again, with some people missing.
it has never been full since .... for a looong time
as the month of syawal is coming to an end,
i'll admit that when it arrived, listening to the takbir for once, (i've never listened to it coz i always tear up) of course, when i did, i teared up.
memories of yester-years..
of the tau hueys, of the hugs and kisses and of the weirdness of seeing that in a glass of water
sadly, that's all i remember. being the favoured grand daughter.
would it have been different if she was still here with us?

in case you non-muslims didn't know,
during the fasting month, evil demons get locked away and the souls of those who have passed away "return" to be with their families.
and no, there's no visa for any of the evil demons..
i believe god doesn't make any mistakes.

bad memories

2007-10-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

Thanks darling for being there for me when I needed you

Met fad today
and good timing
coz i was feeling cranky, pissed and moody
and of course her craziness cheered me up

it's funny sometimes how dreams can be
sometimes you can remember them
most of the times you can't

you can dream of simple things like your friends, family, lover
then again, you can dream of the weirdest and most random dreams like
your school getting invaded by an alien octopus
and then seeing dried squid dangling around

i've become a cynic and a pessimist of late
i realised no matter how many good or bad things you've done when you were just a kid,
you won't remember them or the details much
but when you're matured and older, you'll keep the memories better

and i think it's only human
that you often remember the bad memories instead of the good
or maybe it's just me
i told you i've become pessimistic
no matter how many or how little good memories there are
when something bad happens, and it happens often,
you'll always remember the bad things

i know i can do better than you
after all the lies that you've made me believe
i hope you feel as much guilt as i have over the years

i told myself i should move on and just forget
but i always remember
what it felt like with you

i won't miss all the good times we've had
and the way we were
because i know i deserve much better than you

thanks darling for listening and sharing
i know you'll always be there for me... and vice versa =)

i'm starting to feel the pressure of icas from the tip of my toes to the roots of my hair
how well or badly i will do depends so much on this last academic semester
3 examnable modules
thank god
but still as scary
coz i freaking don get some of the lecturers
and it's only like the 2nd week of school
i feel unmotivated to do anything but slack, cranky, irritated and moody
i hate this time of month
feel like a duck with a big belly,
my mood changes as quick and often as how paris hilton spends her money
no link at all but i cant think of anything
uuuuurrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm sooooo sorry im procrastinating im so sorry for being soooo unmotivated to do my projects
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiz

holidays please come quickly
i wanna go on holiday!!
ILA!! IQAH!!! WHERE ARE WE GOING?!?

2007-10-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

ok i shall dedicate this entry to a certain hottie from brunei..
he can speak 4 languages. mandarin, cantonese, hokkien, malay. =D

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none other then of course...
Wu Chun!
haaaaaaaaaaaaizzzzzzzz
dreamy
look at that smile
those eyes
that hair!
that voice (even though he can't be heard on my blog)
that shy personality
that EVERYTHING!
hahahaha
**drooooools*

he's coming to singapore with fahrenheit on the 27th!!!!!!!!! AAAARGGGH
i wanna see him in real life.. =))
siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh

oh well to those who don think he's hot
nvm you're entitled to your own opinions...

lalalala
*dreaming*

he on certain angles look like a certain someone i know
shall nto say who here
but that someone too bad.. so spoiler recently...
not cute at all alr with his yeah... "girly" look now
oops...

2007-10-23T17:20:00.000+08:00

im sleepy
today has been a bad day so far...
sian..

nt lookin forward to my FIRST multicam production.
Hopefully certain people don screw it up... =S
i don care if im bitching
im feeling pissed...
at so many people...
ARRRGGHHH
i think my mens time is coming...
bleahx
hate night lessons
i wanna go home like now
and sleep off my anger and pissy mood

2007-10-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

ok it's been super long since i updated.
been busy with jln raya-ing...
and too many pictures to upload.
blogger should like revamp and allow multiple picts to be upload at one time instead of clicking one by one. =S

meet my cousin (pict below) with a bone growing problem. he's the same age as me
and basically, his other 3 younger and older brothers are ALL taller than me!!!
why is te world sooo unfair!!! even his younger brother is taller than me by like half a head!!!!there's plenty more cousins not in this picture! =DD

i should be glad im the tallest female on my mom's side. hehehe...

i swear this little angel loooooooooves to take pictures! but she's cute and oh well i love her.. =D

oh well...
my duit raya is substantial...
must save money.. hahaha
school's started and the timetable basically sucks
2 8am lessons!!!!!!!!!!!
and one night class!!!!!!!!
BUT BUT BUT!!!!
IT ROCKS coz goooooooooot 2 DAYS OFF!!!!!!!!!!! well
not in the timetable
this silly module called National Education -_- (yes we still have NE in poly)
rarely has lessons so we don hv to go to sch on weds! =D
oh well
so far my ica groupings are not bad

IP
serene
sara
zafirah
priscilla

Entrpreneurship (the next jessica lecturer)
ophile (this new french student)
iqah (yay!)
fiz

multicam scares the shit and pee out of me....
its like, when one person makes a mistake, everything is like jeopardized....
and watching rtm basically scares me more even though its hilarious because u know tt shitty producing is like not worth watching
that's why its the only malaysia channel allowed in singapore. LOL
kidding!!

ooo oo oo
i got myself a rose pink PSP SLIM!
WOOPEEE
and its sooooooooo addictive

weather has been a pain
hot and cold hot and cold
its raining now
ooo thunder!! hahaha

hmm there's so much i wanna blog budden when i reach here it all just disappears..
OH YES!!

caution!
this is not an advertisement! =D

on saturday i went to grassroots
(don ask me why the heck im gg like basically beside NYP on a saturday)
another girl outing
been long since we had one.
my mom, aunt, 2 cousins and me...
we went to eat at naked fish shoppe
it basically sells seafood mostly and abit of chicken and red meat.

well it is probably the most "mmmm-ing" time i've had
first time ive heard so many "mmmm" in one meal..
the service was great
we were served by an old mr. han who just like gvs u anything when u compliment him and call him "abang" -_-
budden abit too ermm good service coz he kept popping at our table
all my aunts fault coz she kept praising n what not

started with broccolli soup which was acutally MUCH MUCH MORE DELICIOUS than the word brocolli.
we even had extra soup coz yeah... the service was great.
then each of us had a different main course.
after the main course, the set meal included dessert.
which was a very delicious mango pudding
and if that wasn't enough, we had two additional desserts.. paid of course.
cheesecake and brownie.
yummy!!!!!

well the food was simply fantastic!!!

except this scary vampire looking flounder fish head. the fish was good. the head is justtttt scary...

2007-10-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

These are the long lost pictures from this year's class bbq on the 1st of October 2007.. =))

the busker kelvin
the satay man.. habez

the entertainers leonard and kelvin

this is mr. randal goh, one of our lecturers... he's a very interesting and creative person when it comes to stuff like proposing.. *wink wink *

this is mr. azhar our lecterer and PM for our 2nd year.. i think he always seems to be eating outside class...

matthew looks like a freaking drug addict like this
OH YEAH! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND! YOU'RE FINALLY 18! CAN PLAY WITH THE BIG BOYS AND GIRLS NOW! =D=D=D
I'm Such a nice person wish u on ur bday and on my blog... =D

anyways,
to my darling ila, please take care of urself..
and start laughing again even though it hurts ;)
miss your laughter. hahaha

making kuihs and cleaning my house have taken a toll on me
im having flu again
flu flu go away
i wanna enjoy my raya
which is in.............. 4 days! weeets!!

anyways school's starting soon. BOO!!!!!
my timetable's pretty oooooooooook
except two things
MONDAY 8AM LESSONS!!!!!!!
and NIGHT CLASS!! BISH BISH BISH!!!!!
I DON WANT MY HOLIDAYS TO END SO SOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!!